Dear Diary, I left work yesterday. I kept crying and I started to feel nauseated. I knew I wasnt going to be of much use for the day at work. So I only stayed a few hours and left. I drove straight to boyfriends. He had no idea I was coming and I knew hed…

Dear Diary, I keep writing so much here and there, its all I know how to do. I am so unfocused today at work, its hard for me, I just want to leave, yet if I leave I just go home and sit with myself just the same. I so badly want to see my…

Dear Diary, I was up till about 3am. Crazy! And I woke up at 6:30am! I tried about 4 times last night to get in bed. I would get in, my mind would race thru so many thoughts, then I would just break into crying out loud. I couldnt stand being alone with myself so…

I keep crying off and on. Im afraid to go to bed. I though I would pass out. Im afraid to go and sit there alone with myself and my thoughts in my bed. Its one of those nights I wish I could be held just like a baby and rocked to sleep, someone rubbing…

Dear Diary, Well Im getting exhausted. I hopefully will sleep sound, I had something nice to shift my mind for a bit this evening. I was actually sad cause boyfriend was busy all day and hes working all night, so no talking this eve like our usual night time calls. So after I wrote my…

Dear Diary, Ive been very emotional the rest of the day. Crying a lot. Im still crying. Its a wide range of emotions. Luckily I had my anger group today and I was emotional and puffy eyed when I arrived. The group is small so they asked me what was going on and I shared….

Dear Diary, My nose is all red and puffy. I want to just go hide away right now. I mean my ex can see anyone he wants to, even this woman. It doesnt mean it doesnt make it sting all the more. Its just weird for me, its tough. Its not just some woman he…

I just got a call from my sitter. Warning me to be careful who I talk to. Im like huh? She said “My Husband told me your Ex is talking to someone here in town you least expect and I want you to becareful who you talk to” Well she couldnt stand it and said…

Dear Diary, Well, I spoke to boyfriend online. He spoke about his day, how it was nice seeing people, and talked about his grandma and what he did there and helped her move things, etc etc. Then he stopped, So I asked how his Teacher friend was he visited. Him : Shes doing ok, having…

Dear Diary, I feel so lame, but am just being real, this is me. I stayed up till about 11 online to see if boyfriend would arrive home, talked to his roomate she said no sight of him. 🙁 I just wish he didnt tell me stuff like “Ill be home around 9pm” I laid…