Am I just Paranoid?

Dear Diary,

I feel so lame, but am just being real, this is me.

I stayed up till about 11 online to see if boyfriend would arrive home, talked to his roomate she said no sight of him. 🙁 I just wish he didnt tell me stuff like “Ill be home around 9pm” I laid in bed, my stomach was in knots, I was all wondering if he was with that woman. Was he still with her? Was he coming home? Where was he? And why am I all in this inner turmoil over it????

I paged him about 11:30 and said to give me a call.

Well its now about 6:45 am I just got up. No call last night 🙁 I just went and checked my email. He did write me, it says….

“its a lil before 2 and I just got home.Im tired and Im going to go to bed. I

would call but I dont want to wake you up.

You need your sleep n stuffs so imma drop a quick letter instead =0).

i had a good day I went nd helped my grandma move a bunch of stuff in her attic

and then I went and did some decorating idea stuff with at my old Teachers new place..its

pretty nice.Lil beach condo n stuffs. then I went and built ###’s new computer

out of pieces and got it to work.so now he has a P 166

..oooooooooooooooooooooo..(much better than the p 75 he had before)LOL

so then i driveded home where i am now all seepies and imma go ni ni in a sec

right adfter i say i love you. I love you ,muah

hope you had a good night and I will talk to ya tommorrows.”

So he went and did some decorating idea stuff with her. Interesting.

Ok once again, I havent responded this way before, I dont know why Im getting that unsettling feeling. But I do. I dont know what to do with it or what to say without sounding stupid.