Tough, Deal with It
Dear Diary,
Well I had a sucky nights sleep!
Woke up about 1am to the neighbors dog yapping. Its a small dog, and its bark is hideous, it starts out super high pitched and he barks right by their back door and gate, which is right across from my bedroom window.
The dog would NOT shut up! It went on for about 45 min. My Dog was barking, other dogs were barking. I was all “What the heck?” It scared me a little, I got up and peeked out all the windows… Nothing? Wish I knew why on earth all the dogs were in a tizzy. All I know is I can handle some dogs barking, but the neighbors right there? EEEKS! It also barks sunday mornings like this when Im trying to sleep in and the family is gone, its one of those dogs that just yips forever and is so LOUD. Bleh, I dont want to complain, but last night was really bad and nobody came out to bring him in(Which in the past they would do, but 45 min of him yapping? Didnt it wake them too? Or maybe they werent home?”
I go back to sleep and my oldest wakes up at 5am coughing, it was a croupy type of cough, he couldnt breathe well, this happens to him when he gets a cold. It has since he was little, So I have to get the humidifier in his room tonight. Once he gets up and moves around it clears up, but he freaks out and cries so it makes it harder to breathe, He got a drink and sat up on the couch and calmed down. He was supposed to go to a playmates house today, but not with the cough, and hes had a sore throat.
I swear each time they come back from their Dads lately they are fighting off some cold, none have been bad thus far as I shove them full of vitamins and echinacea and have them gargle with salt water. But I dread getting sick, I have a trip friday and last thing I want is to travel with something…
Well I then fell back asleep, I woke up and was having a dream, I wanted to remember it, for my writing class, and I was so tired yet I was afraid if I fell asleep Id forget the dream! So I groggily crawled on the floor and penned my dream laying down hardly seeing the paper! Haha, I havent looked at it yet, but I do remember the dream!
So needless to say I was tired this AM.
I read a book I got in the mail yesterday over the phone to B. I always think hes bored or something, but he REALLY does like me reading to him, in person or over the telephone. He tells me how I have such a great reading voice, Im easy to listen too. I think back to be married to my Ex, I used to read my books now and then to him too, but B, he asks me to read to him. If I come in with a book, he flips the tv off and wants to hear me read.
This weekend when I was working on the packet for District Attny stuff, I was going through my 3 ring folder of emails and garbage between the Ex and I, from start to finish, All my documentation. It was nauseating, silly, and some of it I began to rip out and now I could throw it away.
Just seeing copies of emails he wrote me, some made me laugh at how idiotic they were, Others were copies of bank letters, when he went through that period of writing me bad checks and I was charged fees and asking him for those too.
It got to the point where a bank teller at my bank NEW the situation and shed say “UH OH” when Id get a check and come in to try and cash it. I soon stopped going to my bank and directly to his. Ex stopped writing me checks sometime last year, he has only paid me cash now when he does pay.
Man I need to have a yard sale. BAD
But I also need the TIME to even have one also.
I was going through the kitchen cupboards this past weekend, showing B how full they are off crap I dont need. THe china I want to sell on ebay, but some of the other stuff, it could be for a yard sale. Just time to remove so many traces of my ex and things that are just sitting there taking up space. A Waffle maker, a stove top popcorn maker, B thought those things were cool, but well? I never use them, and one was a wedding gift, other came from Mom In Law.
I guess after my trip, the China will be my mission. Dig it all out, clean it, get good padding materials, take photos and get that stuff sold and out of here.
So B is anxious for vacation, his starts Thursday and he has all next week off too. Lucky Guy. Im only off Fri, and then M-Wed next week. Neither of us work the weekends really.
Talked to my sister again before she left for work yesterday. Everything is so up and down as to what my sister is going to do, so Ill just stop saying it, cause it keeps changing.
The teenager, she refused to come home and is staying with her grandparents, she is pissed at Dad, told him she thought it was inappropriate he stayed the nite at the new womans place(Yes my sis picked him up at the airport saturday, he was home 1 hr then left and didnt come home till Sun eve)
The oldest daughter tells him hes a “Nothing but a cheater” and Dad said to her “Well shes gonna be around so you better get used to her”
Hes become so inconsiderate of anyone else in this situation and tells everyone “TOUGH, DEAL WITH IT” Yet my sister said when he came home he fixed the wiring on her car, then came in and told her “Lets use the tax money and buy you a new car”
We have no idea where his head is AT ALL.
He left the 10 yr old sitting waiting up for homework time sunday night that she had to finish, my sister said he came and looked at her work, said “I dont understand” and told her to close her book and go to bed. My sister felt horrible, shes all “Victoria, I should have been the bigger person and helped her, but her Dad was supposed to do it” I told her not to beat herself up. She tried, and just knows that he doesnt care and wont help. So my sister wont leave the kids stranded again.
Its sad.
Well Im gonna go for now….