Dear Diary, I swear I get wacky on weekends. Do I have some like emotional trigger for Sat and Sun? What the hell goes on with me? If Im busy Im fine. But something about Sat and Sunday and sitting home. I loose all sense of motivation. I dont shower, I feel dirty, I dont…
Dear Diary, Well I went to bed actually EARLY last night. I was feeling sad and depressed. Music dude messaged me and wanted to talk about this chick hes into, and it was just weird for me, then he got pissed at me for not wanting to talk about it. So things were weird. I…
Dear Diary, :::Sigh::: Well my mom took my youngest for the eve. So it was me and my oldest. I tried hitting up Music dude to hang out with he and his daughter. Since we talked about that before, but then he said he wasnt going to go anywhere today just wasnt up to it….
Dear Diary, I just want to cry. I just want B to come over, crawl into bed with me and hold me. I just want to be held. I am feeling depressed today. I just spent over an hour on the phone with my sister and we talked about her therapy more, our parents. And…
Dear Diary, I just re read what I wrote last night. I just felt guilty. He would say he loves me enough hes not going anywhere, and I just want to drop things cause we are in a rough patch. (Believe me Im aware this is a way of turning things on me and blaming…
Dear Diary, Its almost 1:30am. Im all puffy eyed, blowing my nose, just kinda winding down. I was to go and see B tonite with the kids. He was to call me today on my cell to let me know the plan for tomorrow. If I would stay the nite down there, or bring him…
Dear Diary, Goodmorning. I went through yesterday without crying. 🙂 I painted the area above the sliding door in my office last night. Slow progress on that room! But now Im down to one wall almost left to paint! Problem is thats where I have all my stuff. So I first have to move it…
Dear Diary, After all that I last wrote, I thinking I started to just hear myself, hear myself crying each day, heck Ive been crying since I was a grade school girl. I want a boyfriend! Waaaa. Ive been journaling since Jr High and its pretty much the focus of everything I write. HAVING A…
Dear Diary, Yeah here I am again. Just so many things in my head today. Jen thanks for the comment about the Music dude thing. I actually was going to write about that and was thinking exactly about what you said. Even that night when he and I were hanging out watching TV, he was…
Dear Diary, Was just looking at the latest on the Sniper shooting story. I have a friend in Manassas. I was just imagining the fear living in the areas where these have happened. I know someone can shoot you any day anywhere, but you dont really think about it. I do my day to day…