Hang Out With Me

Dear Diary,

Was just looking at the latest on the Sniper shooting story. I have a friend in Manassas. I was just imagining the fear living in the areas where these have happened. I know someone can shoot you any day anywhere, but you dont really think about it. I do my day to day errands, get food, grocery shop, get gas. But the fact that some sicko is out for some sick twisted sport killing people doing normal things? This is the ugliness in the world I just wish wasnt a part of life. Its so sickening.

I was just online talking to my friend G. I let him in on the B situation the other day as I stated in a previous entry. He said “Start doing things Victoria, just live life, dont make it easy for him” Kinda similar to what Annika said. I have no clue how Im still gonna handle this situation yet.

Anyways G and I were talking and he said “Come hang out with me” G and I go back quite a ways. He was the first guy I met when going to an online party at a bar about 5 yrs ago or so. I hung out with him that night. He was kinda quiet, but he was the only person I really new so I sat by him that night. We have been friends since. For awhile we were buddies at online parties, he and I were always together. But he wasnt all over me. He wasnt gross. Hes actually got a great sense of humor, but hes so calm with his humor, so reserved appearing, and then he says the most off the wall things that have the time you dont know “Is this guy serious or kidding” So he always speaks about himself online in a manner of being conceited, arrogant, just totally outrageous, but in person? Ha, total opposite. He just enjoys himself.

He is a father of 2 and Im not real sure the situation at the moment. Last he and the mother of his kids werent living together. They have been strange for years anyways, one of those I dont get it things. But he dates women off and on. He was dating one girl near the end when I was with my ex and out on a date with her at City Walk when my Ex and I went. G came out to visit me last year and he and I went to dinner, then he drove home, its a little over an hour drive to where he is. He has also joined the Army Reserves and says he comes to my town often to hang with his Army buddies, so Ive been telling him to stop by.

So we had a talk today about hanging out. He said “Listen Victoria, how long have we known eachother? Have I acted inappropriate with you? WHos the more shy one?( HE IS ) Lets go do stuff, go see a movie, go to Disneyland. Your one of the female friends in my life who I really can look at as a friend and have connected with on that level with you. Yes I find you attractive, always have, but for some reason I just dont cross that line with you” so we agreed we need to do somethings, go out, have some fun. He had to pack his army dude things. But he said “Find us a movie to go see ok?” So I said Ok. He said “I realize your nervous still about me, Im not sure why after all this time, but I need you to know Im your friend and Im content with that” I seem to think all men have an alterior motive. And with all ive been through, can ya blame me?