Little Better Today

Dear Diary,

Ahhh I feel a little better today. I think that all nighter on the phone with big sister on Saturday did me in.

Trying to get some sleep again at night. B and I were up talking till midnight last night, we just havent had much time to even talk lately either. And both of us still are not adjusted to the time change and our sleep habits, we are both night owls.

I finally had to say good night at midnight cause I have to sleep.

Got up about 7am, kids got up and ready for the first day back to school, well I told them I needed to take them in the office first to double check its cool or if they have any policies. Basically the girl up front called the school nurse, they asked if it had been 7 days, Its been 11. Then she just asked if they had any oozing blisters or if they had all scabbed, they have all scabbed. So they were free to go.

YAY! Back to normal! haha, watching my oldest’s classmates yell his name as he came to the room and I heard them say “Did you have chicken pox??”

Some little girl was puking in the nurses office and the office called the Mom to tell her, and the mom hung up when they told her her daughter was puking, the lady at the desk looks up and me and said “She slammed the phone down and hung up on me!”

Later when I came back through on my way out they said that they got the mother again and she said the daughter had been puking all weekend, they were like “And why did she bring her to school today???”

So it just feels good, kids and I even went to the STORE together last night! Yes, the STORE!

Funny how I couldnt just go to the STORE. And I hadnt gassed up my vehicle since March 30th! Thats a LONG time for me! Im gassing up usually more then once a week or so..

Im just so happy to have them all out of the house again, away from eachother day in day out, back with their own classes and friends and learning. They both need it, and Mom and I needed the break too, Mom has been wonderful watching them for me.

My Mom is awesome, Im so fortunate to have her, as she picks up any slack she possibly can for me and those kids. Shes wonderful. Im so lucky to have her. And it prevents me from having childcare and those costs and the kids get to be with family and I know my Mom, trust my Mom’s parental skills, I dont fear them with her.

Big sister called me last night but I had to cut her off, between kids baths, getting all their work together they did at home when they missed school, my auction stuff, bills, mail, and B wanting to talk to me,,, AHHHHHHHHHH!

I guess big sisters Mom In Law called her yesterday and said “I want to know how we can get you moved out of that house ASAP” and my sister blew up at her.

My sister said that it was heated for a bit, until she got to share her side…

My sister basically told her, “Look, this was his doing, hes the one who went to stay there with his girlfriend and had the affair, hes the one who said that I have no legal rights to the girls yet wanted to dump them off with me as a babysitter and I said No, take the girls with you then, hes now having to face the consequences of his actions. He hasnt gone to an attorney nor has he filed nor has he sat down to work anything out with me, Im waiting for approval through work for my attorney, so until I hear otherwise, Im not going anywhere, until my attorney advises me to do so”

By the way the husband no longer comes by, he cant seem to get away alone even, his new girlfriend has a noose on him and is everywhere he goes.

The Mom in Law said the girls are not doing well, they both want to go home to the house, The little one is sad and monotone sounding and misses my sister. The oldest has become a totally bad news brat(TROUBLE) Dictating and bossing the little one around. The little one went with the other half of the family this past weekend or so, and they said she showed up with no socks, no second days clothes, she said nobody helps her with anything, shes kinda fending for herself.

Sister got a call at the house from the school again asking where the teenager was and that she didnt go to school.

So I guess last night, the teen messaged my sister online and went off on her and said “How can you do this to us! You wont move out of the house, you dont call or see us, you just wrote us off.” My sister said “I do not have the new house number, you girls can call me, your the one who left, your Dad went there, you said your Dad was happy and you girls went along, its painful for all of us, but you seemed more then eager to go along and start over a new life yourself”

My sister said she was a bitch the whole call until about the last 15 min she calmed down. My sister said “Why dont you come stay a night here” SHe said “No, you will just yell at me!” My sister said “Okay fine dont come” Big sis said the teen is a big drama queen.

So then her husband was upset his old buddy was over and freaked yesterday, calling his Mom and brother, now we all know why hes freaked. He doesnt know that my sister knows everything now. And on and on and on…

So basically hes working till like 9pm at night, the girls live in a house with a new girlfriend now, who lives an hour from their schools. The new girlfriend is on the husband everywhere he goes…

Ahhhhh as my sister said “He told me he wanted to be happy and this is what he wanted”

So B went to Physical Therapy today, and wrote me an email and asked if I want him to come over. I also told him he was in charge this weekend of the getaway plan. I do too much planning and I have the 4th of July 2 getaway plans covered. So he said Okay.

Im just to tired to figure anything else out, and hes got his tax refund so he can swing something on his own.

Its been so weird, feels like its been so long,, well it has, its been 2 weeks since Ive seen him.

About 2 1/2 weeks since we have had sex.

Will be kinda weird, haha