Worn Down

Dear Diary,

Bleh, I feel like im getting sick..

Yesterday after Easter lunch with the family I was having a bowl of ice cream and noticed when I swallowed my throat didnt feel so hot.

I also was super tired, well because I was up most of the night prior.

Ive been up late all week and didnt really get to sleep in well this weekend either, well I guess Sat I did..

I also feel a little achy in my upper shoulder area and neck.

My sister said its the lack of sleep and talking so much, but this AM I was all feeling that phlem feel in my throat and clearing it out. Noooo!

Gosh dangit,, here the kids are just about to go back to school and I can get back to the gym and my routine and now Im getting sick? NOoooo!

But I know the lack of sleep is taking its toll on me. I have to stop talking so late and catch up on some rest.

Im gonna run out to Jamba Juice today for lunch and get myself something with a Vit C boost, immune booster or one of those.

My middle sister came over on Sunday with her 2 kids and our kids played as we just sat on my new couch and talked.

I think all of us are just in this weird stunned state due to the situation with my sister and her husband.

Its like the story now just doesnt even sound believable anymore, like people would think your making it up, but its real.

So ultimately this guy has been living his life as a lie, and now its all crashing down. My family knows, his family knows, some of his friends know,, he doesnt know this yet.

I guess the guy Bill came over to the house yesterday and spent about 4 hours talking to my sister, and informed my sister he was never allowed to come by when her husband wasnt there, and the reason? Well her husband had described all my sister’s genitalia to him and he didnt want him alone with her. My sis said “Well apparantly he did like some parts of my body even though hes said hes hated me”

So my sister went and grabbed the phone and called her husband up and said “Hey! Guess whos here!” And totally got off on making him all confused and awkward. I guess the guy got on the phone and played stupid and then her husband went on to tell him “Yeah I had enough of her, she was always fighting with the girls, its not a good environment for them. Can you believe she hasnt called those girls? She didnt call the teen on her bday, and she didnt call them on Easter” (My sister emailed the teen, and called her husband with baskets for the girls to pick up that he never came to get) He then said that my sister took all his money and that all my sister wants him for is his money.

The guy just played along like he was clueless.

I dont know whats going to happen because everything is just so nuts now, My sister is not crying anymore, she was mad, and now shes almost laughing at how pathetic he is, and how insane his lies and his stories have been. She basically wants to confront and expose him. My sister is starting to feel bad now for the new woman because she doesnt think this woman has any idea either. Yes she got involved with him when he was still with his wife,,, but the fact that he was sleeping with them both and lord knows who else or if that guy has anything…

I was talking to middle sister about the situation and how scary it is, it makes me look at B all paranoid, my middle sister said “No Victoria, it makes me look at my husband also and get scared and wonder”

So its not just me that its done a little head number on. Its almost like im needing to back away a little as Im getting to caught up in it all. Emotionally its draining, and my mom and sister both said the same thing.

B called last night, he said he was feeling sick also, we were both beat, he said “When do you think its okay for me to comeover?” all cute like,, and then asked me if I had this weekend free, and do I still want to get away together. I said Yes.

He also wrote me an email this AM apologizing for not having our “Book Date” On the phone last night. I didnt bother to even ask last night as we were both so exhausted and tired on the phone. So he asked me if we can do it tonight, and we will see tomm when I take the kids to school if the school says its cool and all. It should be. If anything youngest will be able to go back as all the visible scabs, etc are gone, you cant even tell he had it. Oldest has some on his face, the small scabs but as of this AM he looked way better as they are just drying up. Im just on those kids not to pick at them. And that they are going to scar and not heal as fast if they do.

I so wanted to call into work today since I felt yucky, but didnt as I have no idea how tomm AM is going to go, gotta go into the school with the kids, take all the work to the teachers for the past week, etc.

Adored, thanks for thinking of me, Ill be okay, I promise 🙂