Neediness BE GONE!

Dear Diary,

Well I just got finished reading one of the new Children’s Bibles with the kids. It has some pictures with words throughout to help kids read. So we finally sat down tonight and read a few chapters. Now my oldest is continuing to read it to the younger one. They really liked the book. I was also impressed with the amount of knowledge my youngest has on the Bible from going to private school.

We also sat down tonight and ate together. I need to do that more regularly with them. We need to start changing our lives around here. I need to make a lot of positive changes.

I had a overall good day at work. I noticed how I was feeling a little less wanting of My Love. Which in some ways is a nice feeling. To not feel so needy. I hate feeling needy, and I was getting sucked back into that routine. So we havent chatted as much, and thats ok. I spent a lot of time searching out more beach homes for my vacation plans. Im thinking I will either plan a 3 day trip or a Week trip, depends on finances, when, and if I find someone to go with. Talking to a girlfriend who is interested in the possibility of going so we shall see! I soooo cant wait to do this!

Today I feel happy. I feel good. I feel good that Im getting a divorce. Doesnt that sound odd? But I really just felt good today. I havent been able to say that word, and I havent been able to call him my EX until I uttered the word divorce. For the first time I can now say MY EX!!!!!

This evening has been pretty mellow and nice. I have such a weight off my shoulders these days.