Dear Diary, Went to church. Came home to about 8 messages, my machine was full, and my voicemail had 2. All from Ex. I knew this was going to happen. I predicted it even, just happend a day later then I anticapated. The way the holidays fell and the kids schooling and the paperwork for…

Dear Diary, Well Im going to attempt church tonight. I havent been in MONTHS. So it starts in about 2 hrs. I got my first credit card on my own! I was a bit shocked when I filled out the online application and it said I qualified. I tried last year and I couldnt even…

Dear Diary, Its Sunday Morning. Well whats been going on? Well Friday came home from work, talked with Mom a bit before she left, and then cleaned the house up before my girlfriend arrived. She has 4 kids. Ages 8, 5, 3 and 1. She used to live here in town and I was babysitting…

Dear Diary, Just been thinking at times, what do I want in a man? A partner? If I were to marry again? 1. He be financially mature and responsible. Employed, strong work ethic, good money manager. 2. Love children. Be good with kids and loving. 3. Be non judgemental, open minded 4. Romantic, edgy, loving,…

Dear Diary, This just popped into my mind. Maybe some other parents or someone may have some advice or suggestions. My youngest son is 6. I split up with my ex when he was 4. I really didnt want these children to be around his behavior any longer. Granted they still have visitations. But I…

Dear Diary, Morning. Well emotionally so far I feel better today. I felt better actually after that cry and the getting the news about the tax credit coming early. I talked to B before he went to bed. Hes working friday after Thanksgiving, but said we can leave Fri night if we want to San…

Dear Diary, Just got in from taking my little one to the childrens group and the Outreach center. Each of the kids will get to go to the very last kids group put on by my therapist. 🙁 But Im glad they at least get to go one last time! I called her today and…

Dear Diary, Well I went to bed at about 1am! Eeks! and was up before 6am when i didnt need to be. Its the stress. I wake up and my mind starts to think about my ex RIGHT AWAY. Its bad. 🙁 Its as if I just play through everything in my head. I play…

Dear Diary, I wrote B an email today. We do all this phone talk and I personally carry things with me all day and we used to write letters, but that his stopped with him not online in his room. But he does check the house computer. So I wrote today, and he wrote me…

Dear Diary, Morning. I had a dream last night. It was a blend of Fear Factor and B. I was having to do these stunts at the beginning like running across these rooftops and things super fast. Then I was a place where B was supposedly living with lots of roomates. And his old roomie/girlfriend…