Dear Diary, UGHHHHH! I have freakin nervous feeling anxious butterflies! And its just over waiting for a response from B. I keep clicking my email looking, nothing yet…. I guess Im afraid so its the fear, but I dont even have a response yet? But Im just afraid it will be a sucky response? A…
Dear Diary, Morning. Well, I want to see the movie Passion of Jesus. I talked to B about it awhile ago when the buzz about it was first coming out, he said hed see it but it didnt really appeal to him. It does appeal to me, namely because of being a Christian, and also…
Dear Diary, Well yesterday I had to pick up oldest early for the dentist. I get there and the office is looking at me like they didnt know I was coming. Well they changed over the computer system and since my son was a first timer they lost the info, but they managed to squeeze…
Dear Diary, Just talked to my Mom, she said she has been having dreams about youngest, one sat, one this AM. Shes all “Is there something new going on?” as in my moms lifetime she has had dreams that were telling of future events. I told her “Well Mom, both mornings you had the dreams…
Dear Diary, Its 12:13am, I so need to get to bed. I just got out of the bathtub so I will get sleepy faster since im relaxed now. I needed a bath though, felt all gross from the gym after work. My Boss gave me a book to read today, a Memoir called Hollywood Animal….
Dear Diary, I kid you not, as soon as I finished the last entry my ex phoned my coworker! She talks loud when he calls her, she is in the neighboring office and I swear she talks out loud on purpose, I can tell its him from the first sentence. He said he just drove…
Dear Diary, In response to Adored’s comment ” how many times do you have to say it to make it go away? haha i know it will go away and at least i am getting it out right?” HAHA…. I wonder if it ever really does go away? To be honest, mine has changed though….
Dear Diary, Morning. Well I got a call, my therapist is sick, Im rescheduled for end of March,, ahhh well. I could have gotten in earlier but the other slots free were during my vacation when I will be in Nashville. Guess its for the best, especially this week. Was going to have to leave…
Dear Diary, Well, its about 11:40pm. B is asleep. I ended up getting something to eat this AM, and I didnt go talk to B but cleaned up my office. Then the feelings I had went away, B woke up and came in all sweet and we just hugged. Im glad I didnt go in…
Dear Diary, I got out of bed just before 7am today. Kids were talking loud and I just wanted to get out of bed. Im uncomfortable again. I am in my office now. B is asleep. And I just feel like bawling and crying. I feel foreign. I dont know how to act around him….