Dear Diary, Morning. I still feel kinda bleh. I think I just feel a lot of uncertainty, confusion perhaps? Its not that anything has exactly HAPPENED to ME. But its just everything around me? The feeling to move is one aspect, the ex returning, wondering where this relationship between B and I will go or…

Dear Diary, Well I feel weird right now, irritable. Kids just returned from their visit and my little one has been giving me major attitude and I had to just send him to his room. I told him I didnt see him all weekend and he needs to be nice to his mother and if…

Dear Diary, Just got home. Later then I expected. Was dropping kids off at 6:30 with Mom so she could drive them to courthouse for visitation with Dad at 7. The kids asked today why are they going there. My mother already told me if they asked her she would tell them the truth “This…

Dear Diary, I did forget to add a few things. He said that he was tired of dating and that he has tried and tried to make it like it was with ME with others. He also asked when the divorce was final. I said it takes 6 mos and he blurted out a date…

Dear Diary, Ive been dying to write this! Well last night my ex called and left a message saying he was picking the kids up at 5 pm fri nite at courthouse according to his EMAIL. LOL HA! His email said Sat at 8am and he said “I will be waiting there for the kids”…

Dear Diary, Well I didnt talk to B at all yesterday until almost 9pm. Didnt see him online or anything. Later he signed on. He was kinda weird and spazzy and I asked him if he had been drinking. He said “Well no, I had 3 Mountain Dews and Im wired” which the man sticks…

Dear Diary, Was just reading this.. thought it was very good. From this site Romeo’s Bleeding. http://www.obgyn.net/displayarticle.asp?page=/yw/articles/Romeopart6 Nobel Peace Prize recipient Elie Wiesel tells a wonderfully haunting story of how he almost became what he hated. He spent part of his adolescence growing up in the Nazi concentration camp at Auschwitz. One night, he was…

Dear Diary, Well Im feeling a little bit better so far today. 🙂 I just lounged around at home after work and in the eve. Uneventful but that was ok. I really just wanted to be ALONE. And the kids of course are in every few minutes talking and with something else to say. Im…

Dear Diary, Something just clicked with me. Its miniscule sounding, but it connected. Last night we stopped in a drive through. Im picky about what I have on my food. So we ordered burgers. 2 different kinds. I had a bacon with beef, he had pastrami and beef(B that is) So when we got back…

Dear Diary, I found this on a site today and found it hit the nail on the head for what I am feeling about my ex and his return. Like physical abusers, emotional abusers will often stalk their former partners. The stalker’s objective is often to control her through cultivating fear rather than making direct…