Home Alone

Dear Diary,

Just got home. Later then I expected. Was dropping kids off at 6:30 with Mom so she could drive them to courthouse for visitation with Dad at 7. The kids asked today why are they going there. My mother already told me if they asked her she would tell them the truth “This is what your Dad wants” But instead they asked me before they left and I said Daddy wants to pick you up there.

So I get ready to leave and the phone rings. Its ex saying hes running late, both the kids got on their knees on the floor around my Mom knowing its there Dad and are excited and hanging on her words. They were ancy the minute I picked them up from school to see him. Well he informs my Mom he is well over an hour AWAY! Saying hes stuck in traffic. Well obviously he didnt plan well to be where he was, there would be no way to make it here in time for 7pm. So my Mom ended up making the kids dinner and I hung out there as we waited. The kids of course were whiney and wondering where there Dad was, when is he gonna get here? He called about a hour and a half later saying he was almost there so I finally left and hugged them both goodbye. My oldest said “Mom Im gonna miss you” I said I would miss him too. We snuggled and he kissed my cheek and had me kiss his. The both packed their little stuffed animals I gave them before their last trip and I told them if they missed me to pull them out, think of me and to remember that I love them and will think of them too.

I do enjoy my alone time, but its harder to feel good about them going when you have concerns more and more about their Father. 🙁

I just read Jamisinc’s entry and it made me want to cry about her friend Susie. Its one of those scenarios I have feared my ex pulling.

I wanted to go to the gym but didnt want to go this late so just went home. Its kinda weird having a free silent friday night. B is out of town for work. So its just ME quiet in my house. I have so many things I could do but not really wanting to start around 9pm. I have really been thinking about working on my Creative Memories Albums again. I would really like to find a group who gets together. I did it long ago with a few friends who would host parties, but they have all moved now. But its just a nice way to hang out and chat and get some of your album done. So I think Im going to start asking around, we have several scrapbooking stores here in town now that offer workshops, but Id just prefer a home situation that is casual, friends getting together.

Called my middle sis today and talked a good while. Found out my brother already bought his own house. But still is not talking about what happened with he and his wife. He sees his kids every day and lives nearby. And my sisters have all praised what a good father he is. Another christian marriage bites the dust. Their kids are older then mine, one is a teenager now and the other just approaching. They were dating back when I was a kid, his wife and I and very involved in the church. She comes from a very nice christian family also. So none of us really know what happened to their marriage. But I think all of us are very relaxed about it. His wife is quiet. And we all know things can go on behind closed doors we have no idea about. I do love his wife or ex or whatever happens. But I think all of us have been through and witnessed enough to know that none of us are immune. Its just interesting to see the drastic differences. My brother left the home so they could stay, he sees his kids everyday, comes over and does the yard work for them still, works full time, and he has them one full day on the weekend. My Dad said tonight “He is a great dad, hes very good with those kids of his, better then I ever was with you children”

Well thats all for now….