Dear Diary, I was really nervous last night. I didnt want to answer the phone all eve afraid my Ex would call and I just didnt want to deal with him. The flowers totally threw a confusing wrench in my brain. Which is what he wanted to accomplish. Its amazing how manipulation can work. I…
Dear Diary, Im just sitting here. I want to type so much yet dont feel like putting out the energy to type it all. I just wish I could transfer my thoughts here by just thinking them. I feel like crying right now. Not a bad cry. I feel like crying because of how the…
Dear Diary, Well I made sure to get ready early this AM before work so that I could do some Valentines Day shopping. Since Im working a odd shift now and get off later days and my week is all appointments this was really the only time for me to shop for the man Im…
Dear Diary, Well its about 3 hrs later. I left the Dating man be. I had to call his place and talk with his roomate about some Catering info for my employer, so it was weird telling him I need to talk to the roomie. So he sent me a little cyber hug. I said…
Dear Diary, Well I have to say as of Saturday afternoon my weekend kinda seemed EH. But it picked up. And here I sit at 11pm on a sunday smiling and feeling happy. I had such a wonderful remainder of my weekend. Im still smiling. I was sitting around online trying to find someone to…
Dear Diary, Got up to see my children this AM since I got in last night they were fast asleep and I peeked at them both. So this AM I hugged and told them I love them. Of course they want to share their newest toy purchases with me. I just smile and say Cool….
Dear Diary, Just having a little frustration vent moment. I came home and found a letter from my bank. Ugh, how many times will I see these? Once again the child support check didnt clear. His last one didnt last time either. Yes it did clear the second time they ran it through, but then…
Dear Diary, Well the Man Ive dated came over last night. We just laid together watching tv and gave one another massages. It felt soooo good. We just totally relaxed and had fun watching Dateline, and Blind Date then some Sat Nite Live. I was sleepy and passed out. I woke up at 5am and…
Dear Diary, Well the man Ive been dating is on his way over. Will be here in 45 min. Will just be nice to see and hold him again. I think despite everything we both really like the safe haven of affection, warmth, hugs, and shared massages for whatever aches we may have. We are…
Dear Diary, Just sitting here. I had terrible stomach cramps today. Doubling over cramps. I had to leave work and go home. I have been thru a lot of emotions today, first waking up to that email in my last entry, then having some negative feelings towards the man I have dated. I wrote my…