Girlfriends

Dear Diary,

Well the Man Ive dated came over last night. We just laid together watching tv and gave one another massages. It felt soooo good. We just totally relaxed and had fun watching Dateline, and Blind Date then some Sat Nite Live. I was sleepy and passed out. I woke up at 5am and I was all to myself, so I turned to him and snuggled up close and wrapped my arms around his chest. He had his shirt off so it was just his warm skin and he felt so nice to hold. He kissed my hand and we just went right back to sleep. It was a no sexual activity visit. Which is what I how I had wanted it to be. We just snuggled and hugged and some gentle kisses. Human contact does so much for a person, just being held and hugged.

Well Im still waiting for more word on the beach house rental. I did get another email and 3 other available houses should there be a prob with construction around the one I want on that date. But I really really want that house, the others are set back a lil ways more and in the Pines. Which will be cooler and the homes are more shaded. I wanted a sunny house more open like the one I had picked. So we will see. Plus going in a jacuzzi will be chillier there. The site also just added some new rental homes. This huge one that is more pricey! But ohhh it looks so cool. Has a Pool table, ping pong, a office area and 2 lines one for internet access(haha) hammocks on the deck, Wide screen tv, cable, ohhhh its nice! But only worth the $225 a nite if you have 4 people going to split the cost.

Dammit I need more friends! Haha. When you spend your life as a married couple and become isolated from others, then all your past friends get married, move to other states and now all have babies and toddlers, its as if Im in this different place then others. Im ready to take on the world, Im ready to regain some of the youthful fun I lost out on. I just need to keep getting out there, between my womens support group and my dance class there are a new group of women to get to know, and these are good places for me to start. I just seem to get wary at times. Like I think a woman is cool then she says something that scares me about trusting her as a friend or else just wondering if our personalities clash to much. I do have my friend out of state. Who I think is cool, you know who you are, but its not like we can just get together any time we want. It requires air travel and planning, but it seems as if she and I are often feeling the same way.