Dear Diary, Im all nervous. Im actually for once making plans for my weekend. Minus B, it feels weird. But Im doing it. Talked to B last night, he is working friday and saturday night. Sooo, Im not gonna sit around, then wait for him to get in after midnight at his place. He said…
Dear Diary, Morning. I just lay in bed each morning and want to call in sick. Im just loving my sleep too much! And its DARK in the mornings now, yucky! B called me about 10:30 last night. He was just getting ready for bed. His job he was supposed to start Mon from 5pm…
Dear Diary, Another evening at home. One kid is in the bath, other is drawing in his room. Im waiting my turn to relax and get in the tub, One more hour until bedtime, but have to look at homework in a few. Well music dude Messages me randomnly with just stuff. Stuff about work,…
Dear Diary, It is weird. Im just sitting here reflecting. I was with my ex since I was 16, Married him at age 20, separated at age 28. My divorce should be final here at age 30. I always wanted to get married. I had a family. We owned our first home. It seems like…
Dear Diary, This is kinda hard to write. Its just what is churning through my head over this B thing… so here it goes. I spoke with him on the phone last night. I addressed his letter and asked him if he felt this was about his new job. And he said No. So I…
Dear Diary, I swear I get wacky on weekends. Do I have some like emotional trigger for Sat and Sun? What the hell goes on with me? If Im busy Im fine. But something about Sat and Sunday and sitting home. I loose all sense of motivation. I dont shower, I feel dirty, I dont…
Dear Diary, Just was in the middle of a chat with Mr Drool guy. Haha hows that for a name? We are in the same chat room, Ive been wanting to talk to him more but I always play it cool. So kinda wait and see if people wanna talk to or are interested in…
Dear Diary, Its 9:30 pm. Im just sitting here online talking but bored as can be. B just signed online! I was like Woa? Whats he doing on this early? His partime job is generally late. 11pm at the earliest that hes off. But hes home. He asked how my day was. I said Blah….
Dear Diary, Well I left B snuggled under the covers. He was only gonna hang out about another hour after I left then head out, he has numerous things to do before leaving at 3pm for work. So today will be his first day. Working 5-1am. But he has to commute, so for starters hes…
Dear Diary, God I hate being broke! Its really bad right now. I shouldnt have sent the full mortgage payment. My mom raised us to get our bills and debts paid on time, preserve our good credit, blah blah blah. Which I think is a great thing to learn. But if Im paying a bill…