Dear Diary, Oh the way life works! EEEEEKS! haha So today Im feeling like all lovey. Music dude and I caught up today. I love that guy. Things got weird between us, but he never was a bad guy. And I just love him. 🙂 So tonight Im like exhausted yet feeling spunky, its as…

Dear Diary, Morning. Well things are pretty good here on the homefront. That weekend vacation did me a world of good. I so badly needed that! Ive also been to the gym 2 days this week, Im not motivated like I used to be, but Im forcing myself to go. Last week I went one…

Dear Diary, Well, feel like Ive been gone for a long time, just weird when you get away from your normal day to day routine, work, house, kids, computer, same ole day in day out. B and I spent Thanksgiving together, he came with me to my sisters. Met my parents and 2 of my…

Dear Diary, Its almost midnite on Thanksgiving. B is asleep all cute under the covers in my bed. He wasnt feeling well, too much food! heehee Upset his tummy and he was having heartburn. I could tell he felt bad. I said it was ok. I got him something(pepto bismol) he was like “Oh no…

Dear Diary, Thanks everyone for your support. 🙂 Im better today. Im exhausted but better. Boss is letting us off at Noon! But pay for full day! So Im going to get some errands out of the way, clean the house up, do a little christmas shopping for the kids, take video rental back,post office,…

In response to Daisey’s comment, I hear what you are saying, Im dealing with pain and loss right now, and sometimes being alone and quiet is the most painful part of all. Sitting there with everything pouring through my head. Ideally Id like to take off with a friend and see San Diego, but I…

Dear Diary, Im just sitting here crying. Im doing laundry in a hurry before getting the kids to leave tonite. I feel so incredibly lost right now. My babies wont be here at all. I have no idea if Im even going to see my boyfriend or how he will respond to me. I just…

Dear Diary, Well It may not have been the wisest thing to send B this email, but I did. I let it out. Heres what I sent… “Hi B, Im in a really shitty fuckin crappy state lately. Im under stress if you havent noticed. So this might not be the nicest letter from me….

Dear Diary, Okay Im going through so much crap and stress Ive been an emotional mess. Without going into detail, phone calls at work, emails, attny office calls, hangs ups, threats for stop or restraining orders, ex threatening sherriff at the house to get the kids, etc etc. Basically loophole in the visitation that wasnt…

Dear Diary, I drove home from group tonight with tears pouring from my eyes. Im worn out. Im tired. I just want to crumble and have somebody take care of me, HELP ME. Someone to hold me and sleep beside me and tell me Im gonna be ok, comfort me. Make me dinner, let me…