Stress eating me Up

Dear Diary,

I drove home from group tonight with tears pouring from my eyes. Im worn out. Im tired. I just want to crumble and have somebody take care of me, HELP ME. Someone to hold me and sleep beside me and tell me Im gonna be ok, comfort me.

Make me dinner, let me just fall apart for a bit, take care of me.

My therapist said at the close of group “Do you realize your upper chest is breaking out in a rash” Someone else said they noticed it to when I spoke. My boss wifey said the same thing to me at work today. When I came into the office to tell her what was going on, she commented on my chest turning all red. Some reaction to the stress my body is having.

I have people saying “Get a restraining order” The calls are harrassment”

Ex called my work twice today. Secretary talked to me first. She said “Hes on the line do you want to take the call?” I said “No hes not supposed to call me, our legal papers state voice mails and emails.”

They are putting out a memo tomorrow to tell everyone not to transfer calls to me from him.

Boss wifey also said “Hes a good actor” and I was informed the day he was at the job and I spoke to him on the way out of work. Well that was the day of Halloween and me inviting him to watch the kids trick or treat. And my ex came up and asked me to write a email saying I wasnt scared of him or afraid of him. I said Id write no such letter. Well I pulled out and left. Boss wifey said he got all dramatic acting like he was afraid and told her “Im scared of Vicky” playing Mr Victim!

The stress is eating me up. I have Mr Obnoxious on IMs trying to be there for me. Music Dude had me call him tonight. He talked with me a bit, said I need to just move out of here get out of this town, get a restraining order and be doen with him.

If it only were that easy. I dont know what to do. I cant stand this, the stress is eating me up.