So Lost
Dear Diary,
Im just sitting here crying. Im doing laundry in a hurry before getting the kids to leave tonite.
I feel so incredibly lost right now.
My babies wont be here at all. I have no idea if Im even going to see my boyfriend or how he will respond to me. I just need him to come and hold me, tell me he loves me and its going to be ok. I feel like that is too much to ask though of him.
I dont think at this point I can bare the idea of hanging out with my family. Its just the watching families, noticing where I am at, that mine is lacking, It will remind me of the holes missing. No kids, a shitty boyfriend, my marriage gone.
I dont know where to turn. Where to go.
I just want to be loved and held.