Feeling Better Still :)

Dear Diary,

Morning. Well things are pretty good here on the homefront. That weekend vacation did me a world of good. I so badly needed that!

Ive also been to the gym 2 days this week, Im not motivated like I used to be, but Im forcing myself to go. Last week I went one day, did only 20 min of Cardio and left. I just didnt want to be there, but I know when I have these months off its hard to get back in the swing, so I just have to DO IT. So I went Mon, did 20 min of cardio and left. Went Tuesday, did 20 min of cardio, and some weights for my arms. Still havent gotten back my enthusiasm. But Im also less stressed. 🙂 I was spending 30 min doing cardio and about another 30 min lifting weights before, so hope to get back into that routine soon.

B said he didnt sleep well his first night back home, that his mind was racing. I asked him “About what?” Normally its hard to get much out of him, he doesnt want to share. But he told me it was his finances, paying off debt. I really had no idea what he owes. Other then his Gma, and the guy working on his vehicles. But he said he owes the government about $600. He owes his mom money also. And now that hes making money he said he needs to start saving also. I asked him if he had a plan. He said “Well lets see pay the one that keeps me from going to jail first?” I said “Good Plan!” So Im gathering its the IRS he owes money too? Not real sure what else it would be.

He and I spoke last night. He informed me starting today there is mandatory 2 hrs overtime each day. AND hes working Wed-Sun EVERY NIGHT in addition for the company he works part time for. So the guy is gonna be up at 5am, home after midnight for 5 days straight! Just work work work. So I know he will be non exsistant for awhile. He does now have email at work so he writes me during the day which is nice. He also said he wants to move soon. He does not like the place at all.

Its really sad. The family. The woman just had her baby a few days before Thanksgiving. So now there are 2 babies crying during the night(her other child has just learned to stand, so that tells you how close they are, she got pregnant right after the other was born. And she has a 7yr old. And she wants more! She screams LOUDLY. B says shes a total B&$#! and then these are the people he also works partime for. So its just too much. The little 7 yr old is always all over B for attn. This is the one whos always in trouble and acting out because shes starving for attn.

So B says to me last night ” The 7yr old came in and said “Can I ask you a question?” and B said sure. And she said “Do you and your girlfriend have sex?” B said he swung his head around all WHAT? He said “That is none of your business” She said “I wanna know” B said “Listen that is NONE of your business, why do you want to know?” And he said she wouldnt answer. He said the other day she dug into the bottom pouch of his backpack where there was a wadded up in a ball condomn wrapper and she found it, unfolded it and said “I know what this is, its one of those things you put on your penis”

Im just blown away at the talk of this little girl and that household. My kids have no idea what condomns are, they dont ask me about sex.

But that little girl is around such crap and people who dont guard there tongues that she just knows way too much for a small child.

Its sad. 🙁

Work is going well, Im learning new things which Im happy about. Im gonna go through the college courses book I got in the mail. I need to get registered for classes coming up!

My little one forgot his pillow with his dad. So when I got home from work Monday it was sitting at the front door. I was kinda nervous. Wondering if he brought it, and the mail box was open with the mail sticking out. I then went to the garage to check if he had been in it. Nothing looked touch, and for all I know his aunt or someone brought it by. My ex hasnt been to the house and I dont allow him drop offs there or anything. I dont want him near me or the house, when he came to get things from the garage last year I made sure he had a relative and I new what time and I wasnt present.

Well ex called for kids last night, hes not out of town at his Uncles place. He told the kids he brought the pillow by. And and guess what was in the mail box that day? Sticking out? A large white envelope from the DA Child Support Services. So if he didnt see the mail that would have been visible to the eye since it was sticking out.

Got attny papers. Court date first week of Jan. Eeeks. Its more for my ex that he hasnt ever turned in his paperwork. Basically the disclosure for his work history, jobs, the break down, tax returns, all the info they need hes never completed and its on the 3rd request, so the court date is basically saying hes failed to comply with the courts and they are requesting he pay my legal fees also for this delay type stuff. So have no idea what ex will do? Wait and see I guess.

Not sure if I wrote, but ex asked my mom out to lunch when she dropped the kids off last week, she said yes shed go to talk with him, well instead they sat down in McDonalds while the kids were in the play land. He said hes emotionally tired of all this and wants it done and does NOT want to go to trial. My Mom asked him “Well you get all your paperwork together and your cancelled checks, have you paid Vicky?” he replied “Well uh not for about 4 mos” She said he then said “Well about 4 mos since the court order I havent” She said “Well what about before?” SHe said he put his head down and said “Uh, I guess not, well wait, no I have” She replied “Well then bring in your cancelled checks to show that” he replied “Well Vicky has all that!” Mom said “Umm no if you wrote the checks you will have that to prove to the courts” (My mom is not stupid she is aware he hasnt paid) So she said to me “I think he is aware he has nothing to stand on” Ex also informed my Mom he did get a job. But the pay was too low, hes overqualified. So he didnt stay.

My Mom reminded him of this area, the economy here. You cant make what he was making here.

So hes totally capable of getting a job, he just wont take one cause the pay isnt what hes used to, so instead he doesnt work at all????

Also is anyone aware of unemployment and how it works? My ex claims he was fired. Oh and he told my mom why. Mind you this is the 3rd version Ive heard and none match. He told me people made slanderous lies about him, and got him fired for no reason. He told my mother he signed something in place of the boss and got caught. So could he be getting unemployment? Do they attach that for child support?

Well enough for now. More later