Dear Diary, Morning. I was woken up about 6:15am by someone pounding on my metal screen door. It freaked me out, since first of all its early, second, the only person who does this is the meter reader who needs to get out back, and I put the dog inside, but she just came last…

Dear Diary, I went to the gym after work yesterday. It was packed and everything cardio wise that I use was taken, bleh. So I went in the bathroom and was stretching when the woman I met whos going to be a cop came in. So I went back out with her and she was…

Dear Diary, Hello again, Well I am also going to document my exercise/weight etc progress. Since Im taking something now, feel its important to watch and see if its truly working. I even took the dreaded “BEFORE” photo, ewwww. You know I do not like the way I look in a bathing suit? haha, and…

Dear Diary, Morning. Im in a wierd kinda, I dont want to write in here mood but I do? If that makes any sense? I want to but dont want to type? Haha wish my thoughts could just transport from my mind onto here. I called B around 11:30am on Sunday and he answered. I…

Dear Diary, Well I slept from about 2:30am-8am. Ugh, kids woke me up and I couldnt go back to sleep, was thinking about the B stuff and getting angry so I couldnt sleep. Got up and showered early and played online in the chat room. B’s old gym buddy was on, the one he just…

Dear Diary, Just sitting here tonight, a lot is pouring through my mind, well it has been throughout the day, several days, but in the eves it gets worse. So I guess there are some things I need to say to B, I want to talk to him. I tried calling him twice tonight, not…

Dear Diary, Ok! YAY! I just told Jen I was gonna write! We have officially planned a little vacation. Well shes gonna fly out here in a few weeks! YAY! And I just bought tickets to Wango Tango for her and I to go too! YAY! Its at the Rose Bowl, so I got lower…

Dear Diary, Well I caved in, Im so weak. I called B. He was just hanging out all this time?? Im like, you told me you were going to the bathroom over 4 hrs ago and would be right back and logged off. He laughed that he had forgotten and just assumed I logged off….

Dear Diary, Its about 11pm Friday. Im sad again. I miss B. I miss being with him. I get sad. I get sad that all week I dont hear “I cant wait to see you again, Im gonna come over, etc” When its my weekend with the kids, I wish he was here, I wish…

Dear Diary, Well it would help if I payed attention to the supplement instructions, says for my weight range to start with 1 capsule instead of 2, so no wonder I was all freaky feeling yesterday! haha, so we shall see how my full day one goes, if they make me feel to weird. Music…