Dear Diary, Whew what a day so far! Worked till Noon, left for group. New group a bunch of new faces, my old group I knew everyone so it felt very comfortable so I was the “Newbie” today. Also the new therapist is much younger and really hip looking and has a different approach to…

Dear Diary, I was looking up Empathy. In the dictionary online. I told B last year that he seemed to lack Empathy. His response “I have empathy, I just dont care is all” And the logic? Thats defeating the whole meaning of Empathy. “I am Empathize with people, I just dont care to show it”???…

Dear Diary, I got about 4 hrs sleep last night, same the night before. I was on the phone with a friend online M till 3am, hes been in a relationship for 3 yrs with similar type situations, and hes left her and gone back, left her and gone back. And its not getting better,…

Dear Diary, Im crying again. I did well after work, but I was just waiting for Mr Comedy to leave, I just wanted to cry, cry, let out how i feel. He came out, to hang with me. It was cool and all, I got my mind of things a little, we went out to…

Dear Diary, Well I made some phone calls. Im taking care of Me. I called the therapist, my session is next week, Im getting in tomorrow. 🙂 Also my Domestic Violence group is going again and that is tomorrow before counseling so Im going to that also. I then called the salon, made myself a…

I was just reading some websites. Like “Am I being Stalked?” and ones like that. They were somewhat helpful. They also went over the health affects it has on a person. I feel this place of just wanting to get out of here, many of you have seen this by my constant writing of wanting…

There was a time when you were my shining light My Strong arm in the storm My Safe place Like the song “But you own the place, where all my thoughts go hiding..” Now its replaced with electronic people all over the world, Random people in various places Cyber Hugs and “Im thinking good thoughts”…

Dear Diary, I need to write little updates here and there, little moments to keep myself a little more calm. I so didnt want to go into work today. I so want to check out and crawl in bed, yet at the same time Im afraid to go home, be alone and dwell in bed…

Dear Diary, I have a email folder saved. I went through it today. I read all these sweet emails. Things sent to me by B. What happened to the guy I fell in love with? As I reflected at the dates, most of the emails were sent in 2001. Our first year together. Our first…

Dear Diary, I took my telephone. I shouted “FUCK YOU!” and slammed it so hard on the desk tonight I thought I broke it. B Oh why did I fall in love with YOU! Letting you go hurts so freaking bad for me. Tonight I posed the question, read him the last email he wrote…