Dear Diary, Hiya, Well I was talking to Ex BF on the phone last night and hes all “So have you heard the big buzz in the chat room?” Im all “No?” I havent been going in there in months really, the place where I used to go, the place where Ex BF and I…

Dear Diary, Evening. I went and got my nails done! 🙂 It was kinda weird going in. See Ive been taking my bosses wife for over a year to this manicurist. And well, the last time I took her I said it was time to schedule me. Well she ended up having to place me…

Dear Diary, Morning. Went to the gym yesterday, saw him. We did not speak or smile at one another. It sucked. I worked out with Gym buddy and his work partner and his girlfriend, so that part was good as I had people to be with and not work out alone. Yes part of me…

Dear Diary, Well I just called the number on the house for sale. DANG! Prices have gone up! The house is so cute. Its 1937. Small, 2 bed 1 bath. But the $139,000 price I was SOOO not expecting. I didnt ask any further questions. She asked if I wanted to look at it. Its…

Dear Diary, When Ex BF came over on the weekend he had something for me. He bought me a CD. Wow, he also brought a My Little Pony toy over for me too( I collect them ) He bought me Stacie Orrico’s album. I had mentioned I was interested in it and had showed him…

Dear Diary, Morning. FloatsonClouds, thanks for the comment, it actually was good, it sorta put somethings together I could not put together into words myself. Wether it is true or not that it is manipulation that is occurring with Ex BF and not genuine, I cannot say the final verdict on that one. All I…

Response to Comment… New Chapter. You think Gym Dude is a great thing that Im missing out on? Im curious on my other Readers here, do any of you feel that way? Im kinda lost where you and FloatsonClouds(sorry if you dont feel that way let me know)why you guys think Gym Guy is good…

Dear Diary, I wrote an email to one of my guy pals from the abuse forum who I talk to about issues often. I appreciate what he had to say in response to my letter… It gives me much to think about.. It really does, I dont have the answers to his questions yet, but…

Dear Diary, Ever feel like you have no clue what you are doing? Yep! Thats me. Since Friday I started to feel better physically/emotionally. More normal and not so tired and all that. Had a nice weekend. Saw Gym Guy, Saw B. I went furniture shopping Sunday and found a couch, its a 2 piece…

Dear Diary, Ive got a lot of up and down feelings right now. Im not sure what they all mean, but my body is reacting in ways, so Im listening to it, and just going with how it feels. B has wanted to do something on our Anniv date of when we first started to…