More To Life
Dear Diary,
When Ex BF came over on the weekend he had something for me. He bought me a CD. Wow, he also brought a My Little Pony toy over for me too( I collect them )
He bought me Stacie Orrico’s album. I had mentioned I was interested in it and had showed him a video for her song “More to Life”
So it was very sweet he picked it up for me…
The song,,, it hit him also….
I’ve got it all, but I feel so deprived
I go up, I come down and I’m emptier inside
Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I’m missing
And why can’t I let it go
CHORUS:
There’s gotta be more to life…
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I’m…
Trippin’ out thinkin’ there must be more to life
Well it’s life, but I’m sure… There’s gotta be more
(Than wanting more)
I’ve got the time and I’m wasting it slowly
Here in this moment I’m half-way out the door
Onto the next thing, I’m searching for something that’s missing
I’m wanting more
I’m always waiting on something other than this
Why am I feelin’ like there’s something I missed….
Always… Always…
More to life
There’s gotta be more to life (more to life)
There’s gotta be more to life (more)
More to my life
More to Life- Stacie Orrico
My friend K said to me yesterday “Vicky, where would you like to see yourself in say 5 yrs?” What about 1 yr?” and focusing on what I have wanted for my life, my dreams and goals, and how do these men fit into that?
I want to have a partner, be with on person, develop a career for myself, I feel like Im ready for a change in that area, wether it be a job change or more schooling right now?
I want to travel.
I want to get a house I feel at “HOME” in.
By the way, each morning, I drive my kids to school. When I leave I drive through my old neighborhood(This is where I spent my first 16 yrs of life) and I drive by my childhood house every day.
And diagnol from my old house, is a house for sale.
I have always noticed this house. When I was a kid it didnt look all that great as it wasnt painted nicely, people had junk all around it and on the porch and all.
Its MY KINDA house, its old. It doesnt fit into the neighborhood totally since it appears it was there way before the track homes went in. Its more a Craftsman type home, big porch. I saw the sign and it kinda perked me up. But then I wrote it off. But this AM, and each day, I see it again. I wonder what it looks like inside.
But its totally on a cross through street, no sidewalks on this stretch, and I remind myself “Vicky, there will be others like this, when the time comes, you will find YOUR house”
It sounds so silly, but I cannot wait till the day I get the HOUSE I have always wanted.
Im sure the house is cheaper then the current one I own. Heck I was watching the real estate channel last night and there was a house down the street from mine on it, 4 bedroom, 2 bath, which is what mine is but its more on a busier stretch of road, and the asking price was $163,000, Built in the 60’s like my home also.
Funny, I know values had gone up more, when the divorce was being finished we valued my home at $130,000 but my neighbors has been telling me the prices have gone up again.
Crazy! I got my house for $69,000, and now its worth about $163,000 in just 4 yrs!
God I would love to move.
Anyways, I guess thats it for now.