I was just sitting here and wanted to add a few more things. I tend to dwell in thoughts for long periods of time, worry, try to figure stuff out, contemplate and disect everything. Mr. C does like to talk, and talks quite a bit, but he also stops me when I start to do…
Dear Diary, Ok I swear is it just my luck here? Is it something Im missing? Or am I just good at picking men who have this in common? Mr C left and said hed come back and hang out with us today, to just call him. So I do. No answer and I leave…
Dear Diary, Well I leave tonight. Im not sure if I will have computer access or not. They have one but I didnt remember to ask about what type of service, passwords, or any of that. I really am debating bringing my computer with me. But Ill see how I feel come end of the…
Dear Diary, In law just sent an email card for the kids. Its very frustrating for me this whole situation. As my sister said “Its like you dont even exsist” She tells me how bad and terrible and that my kids are sexually acting out, she doesnt watch her tongue when with them, has a…
Dear Diary, Nice relaxing evening. Went to group and had a great time and got another womans phone number. So maybe we can spend some time together and hang out. Came home and have started slowly decluttering. Started with the hallway closet. Pulling out all the old jackets I no longer wear. I really want…
Dear Diary, I just wrote B a letter. I shared briefly about what Im going to write in this entry. We were talking about “triggers” yesterday in group. At times I often feel I dont go through what the women who were beaten went through. They keep telling us abuse comes in all forms, and…
Dear Diary, Just got in, kept the sitter, ended up going out midday to see B. So was there from 2-9. Mr Comedy has been calling me, he has started to call me each night. I have to say its nice to hear my phone ring, since it rarely does from B. Mr Comedy and…
Dear Diary, Well Im emotionally drained. The thing with Mr Comedy kind of hurt. I had told him I was with someone and he was the one who said SO? And wanted to be friends. I noticed hes been talking about sex lately, not saying having sex with me but just say the lack of…
Dear Diary, Well I cant wait until Wednesday! We get to take off to stay in the Valley! Me and the kids for 5 days!!!!! We drove down last night to see my friends. The kids loved it there. Of course we wont be staying there when the family is home, but it will still…
Dear Diary, Well Mr Comedy said he didnt want to go out with me, that he likes me a lot and he cant keep his hands tied behind his back and just be Mr Platonic with me. So he feels its best we dont see one another in person, just chat online. I understand, yet…