Bleh

Dear Diary,

Well its about 9pm.

I left work, went to a few stores and ran around, and to the bank, My Jeep got all weird. It sounded strange, the brake light went on and the blinkers wouldnt work, Then I turned it off and restarted it and it went away.

It did this yesterday but I thought I was super low on gas and that was why( I was low on gas) when I gassed up it was fine, then today it did this twice.

Sighh, I was all scared I wouldnt be able to get to the kids school and home without it breaking down on me. So I called Mom and she met me at the school and followed me home, called the mechanic but he didnt answer or call back, which isnt the norm, so he must be gone or something. I left a message.

So I dont know whats up. Reminds me of when the cylinder went bad last time, but I really dont know, so I hope I can get it looked at soon, or else Im totally right back to square one, not trapped by Chicken Pox, but by lack of a vehicle, which means Ill have to call mom for rides to get kids to school and me to work, etc etc, bleh! Please Lord let me get it in soon.

And I wont be able to drive to B’s friday either, but I figure, he can come down here and get me!

Soooo,, me and the kids went for a walk with the dog around the block, since I needed some exercise, then we did homework.

I balanced the checkbook and all and was cleaning up my ofice. B just called a bit ago, he said hed come out tonight but it would be around 9-10pm as hes working over time now. Well he called me and said “I dont think Im gonna come out, Im fried, I just got home, Ill come out tomm” I said Okay.

Yeah Im dissapointed.

He talked about work and how there maybe some big things going on and that could mean a possible move up in position and major pay increase, etc etc.

But it would also mean hed be on salary and working more when they need him…

So we talked some and he said “Well babe, Im gonna go for a bit, Im gonna go run some errands”

And I get all weird, Errands? At 8pm?

He didnt say what, then said “I think Im going to go and get some coffee and hang out”

He said hed call me later.

I dunno,

Guess I felt a little irked, like hes going out, alone? With his friend? I dont know, its just me assuming, but he rarely goes out like this, and hes too fried to come out to see me after 2 fucking weeks of not seeing one another yet hes running errands at night and going for coffee?

Ill see whats up more when he gets in.

🙁