Thoughts on Comments
Dear Diary,
By the way , Thank you all for your comments and private ones. ANd to those of you I spoke to online.
You know, its really fascinating. If I took the comments from 3 of you here who have known and read me for sometime,,,,, well each of you had a different interpretation on the situation. I read each one and see truth in it. Yet none are the same, and I know it ultimately comes down to me. To make my own decisions, and when you ask for other peoples thoughts, its amazing how so many people have different viewpoints all looking at the same situation.
All I know is Im not feeling right and just trying to make sense of it all.
And that is the struggle for me.
People can make suggestions as to what they think it is, but it doesnt mean its correct, I will need to take this to my counselor, thats in about 2 weeks, I may have this issue resolved before then. But shes always really good at being objective and throwing questions at me to come to my own conclusions.
All I know is Im exhausted emotionally from that?
Oh and by the way M, I couldnt have given him $25, Im more broke then he is at the moment and he knows it, which is why Im trying to sell stuff online, plus I picked up groceries to make us all dinner and breakfast this past weekend.
And B and I did sit and get that whole issue resolved about Valentines Day, we had a good talk about it, how we each had our own thoughts and assumptions behind it all, and we put it all out there. How I said sitting down for dinner was fine, and he said COol I can do that. So that part was totally resolved. Then later he has his dates off and realizes he will be paid in time? I dont know he was confusing me and said that he could probably take me out to eat. But we will wing it, no big deal really. Im cool with that.
B has snapped before with the F you thing in the midst of some conflicts in the past, but not so quickly and its never been around the children.
I guess i was just bummed that he told me a few weeks prior about the guys bday then all the sudden Sun AM he tells me about when it is, which left me no time to prep to try and go also. And yeah he went out with these 2 single guys and hung out with 3 girls from the internet, yeah Id rather have been with my sweetie that night. Its been awhile since Ive been able to hang out with these folks, I think its time to tell B to plan a night to hang out that works so I can go too. He keeps mentioning his old roomie having us over for dinner, but B is really bad at planning. Ill just need to get in contact with her myself I think. 🙂