Scarface

Dear Diary,

Been wanting to write but at the same time just have been so busy and tired.

I guess I have to say its better then sitting around obsessing about the legal/ex stuff, being an emotional wreck, etc like I was before.

I only was able to hit the gym 3 days this week. Come Thursday I had an attny office appt to write up a new proposal to ex. Got there and the paralegal had been taken to the hospital, so I wasnt able to do the paper work. I then drove to my parents house and noticed the gauge on my battery in the vehicle was low and figured I needed a new battery. Well neither of my parents were home, so I headed out to get the kids and at least make it home and take care of the battery that night or the next day with some help.

Well my vehicle lost power about a block from the school right at an intersection!!! EEKS! I was able to turn the corner and it died right in the lane. It was dark now, everyones getting off work and so there was people flying home and my emergency lights wouldnt work and here I am in a lane! So I hurried to get out knowing it would be dangerous and I could get hit or rear ended. I called my Ex’s Uncle who lives nearby, they said theyd come over. So all I could do is wait and watch people swerve around my vehicle and honk. :::Sigh:::

Luckily 2 young guys came along and asked if I wanted help and they pushed me into the shopping center parking lot before the Uncle arrived. I then had him run me to get the kids, and then take me to my parents house to wait for them to help me. Uncle is a mechanic, and hes always been nice to me, but hes a binge drinker alcoholic and when hes not drinking, he can be just as bad when hes dry. So I could tell his mood and I didnt want to be around him much or ask him to help get it fixed. I thanked them for the ride and all, he offered his help if I needed him. I just said thanks, and luckily mom was home now!

So we drove over in the dark, and had to remove the battery and go get a new one. I was supposed to get marshemellows, some groceries, I was starving, thursday is kids night before their spelling tests, and UGH we werent going to get home on time for it all. And the kids sleep routines are all off since thanksgiving visit with their Dad. So Im trying to get them back down earlier so waking up for school isnt a problem.

Well I got my vehicle home but noticed it still didnt have the greatest power so knew it was my alternator.

So I wrote work and told them Friday I wasnt sure if I could come in. I called the mechanics friday morning. $260 was the quote from my fave mehanic, called the other one Ive used and it was $200, but his was a rebuilt and 1 yr warranty. Other guy used new ones with 3 yr warranty. So I figured go for the $60 more for the new. Luckily he could get it in that day and maybe have it done that night or first thing in the AM. So I ran kids to school then mom met me at the mechanic, then mom drove me into work late, and coworker took me home.

I also had planned a trip to Hollywood with my girlfriend to see Scarface at the Egyptian theatre. And so I had to tell her I couldnt drive, wasnt sure if Id have my vehicle in time.

She said that was fine, so we headed out around 5:30pm. We got down there in time whew! Considering we got out of town later then I hoped but there was no traffic. I had never seen Scarface before. The Al Pacino 80s film. Everyone told me it was good. So I figured it was a good one to see on the big screen since watching things on home video just never has the same effect as the theatre experience.

There were mostly males in the audience. But I did like the movie, yes it was violent and a sad story, but it was good. Afterwards they had the actor who played Al Pacino’s buddy and partner speak for a Question and Answer time. Manuel I believe or Manny was the characters name in the film. I was actually thrilled he was there, I thought he was so cute in the movie, baby face looking guy, Just wild to think it came out 20 yrs ago. And how young Michelle Pfeiffer was in the film. I got to go up and meet him afterwards and shake his hand and I told him it was my first time seeing it.

Got in a little after midnight. Mom watched the kids for me. I wish I could go to see the other movies tonight and tomorrow night but I cant with the kids. ::Sigh:: So people from work will be there. But its always nice to go, I get complimentary free tickets for everything.

I tried calling B, up until 1am. I was awake. I knew he was getting in late. He called me this AM when Mom took me to get the vehicle at the mechanic. He was so groggy voiced! He got in at 4am! eeks! Tonight hes working in Anaheim, Disneyland hotel and somewhere else. Then hes gotta work again tomorrow night.

Not sure when I will see him next. My next free weekend is next week, but December is his busy month for the part time business so he works weekends normally back to back.

He has been very sweet to me. Pretty much since before our trip when I wrote that letter. He calls me daily, writes me emails, says he misses me, that he loves me.

So I can see he is trying to make some changes, and I really appreciate that.

I can be understanding of being busy, I really can, but the emails and the nice calls daily are a big help. I used to go through days of no calls from him.

I know he needs to get his act together financially and I can see hes really trying and wanting that, so I pray he sticks to doing so and getting himself in better shape in that area.

Well here I sit on a Saturday. Im tired, I couldnt sleep in. Just my body clock wakes up even tho Im tired. Weather is NICE today, sunny and pretty, wear a sweatshirt kinda day.

I got my first ever credit card on my own last week in the mail! I was quite thrilled that I finally was qualified all by myself! SO this is my first card on my own not with my ex or him being the income to qualify.

So it came in handy as I didnt have enough to fix the vehicle, so I had to charge about $200. But Ill be able to pay it off. 🙂

So things are going ok, I have most of the kids gifts covered for CHristmas, B is about the only thing I still h ave to get some gifts for. I really want to get him a shirt, a particular type he wears and loves but its getting old, but I need to catch a glimpse of size. I suck so bad at buying people clothes. I dont want to buy it too big or too small. And I have a few little items in mind to get him just gotta have a day to do so. Maybe next week. So today Ill be cleaning up at the house, told the kids we gotta clean out their toyboxes and get rid of some toys with the holidays coming up and they will have new toys then.

And Im hoping to go and get our Christmas tree tomorrow and break out all my decorations. Ive been a bit fearful of my ex going in the garage which is where they are and taking them. Especially since he came by here to bring the kids pillow when I wasnt home and left it at the door, but it looks like he didnt go in the garage. (We have an old door, not with an opener and it doesnt have a lock on it, just a slide in lock.)

Well thats enough for now, have to get busy about my house! Later!