ANGRY

Dear Diary,

Im dealing with some anger right now. At my ex. Its nothing new, and nothing new he has or hasnt done. Its just a deep anger right now. Mad that he has still avoided things. I know it will all come down on him eventually. It just pisses me off.

It makes me angry for being with him as long as I was, it makes me mad for trying to believe in him.

It makes me angry that I was a stay home mother and raised the kids while he worked and bought all his fucking toys and I cried and stressed over the bills and groceries.

He dropped us all from the dental insurance. Just when our youngest had some major work needed to be done, he lied and drug it out for almost a YEAR! And now he is terminated or whatever it is from his job. Yet the fucker still had the policy for himself!!!!!

It makes me mad that he agreed to pay for health insurance thru my employer for the kids since his was out of network, and I couldnt afford it so he worked a deal with my boss and agreed to pay them. Well he hasnt paid since around March this year, so he just up and quit paying there medical.

It makes me mad that once I get the wage assignment done he isnt at this job anymore!!!

How he sends me these emails saying hes gonna send me money, and hes sorry for making it hard on us, yada yada yada.

Fuck that!

I lived and shared my life with that man! Im disgusted by him.

Now he is going on month 3 of no support. then his stupid email saying hes not working? Yet his Uncle told me otherwise last week? I wouldnt doubt if he is working for family the ones who have their own business and pay under the table.

Someone asked me “Well does he buy anything for the kids?” I said “Well the kids said he bought them each 2 pairs of pants and 2 shirts” but he wouldnt let them wear them here. My friend was like “Oh so that is helpful to you?”

Im just so ANGRY, time for group anyways which I need, Later