Time with B

Dear Diary,

Well I had a nice day, 🙂 Went down to B’s house with the kids, hung out till he had to go to work. We went to eat, then the park with the kids, then to his place and they played computer games. My kids really wanted B to play with them at the park and kept approaching him. He was resistant at first, but soon enough he joined it with their toy air gun that shot foam missles and pegging them, then shortly thereafter we were chasing the kids through the playground equipment pegging them. It was quite fun actually. 🙂

We laid on his bed as the kids were at the computer, small amounts of affection. Not holding hands or kissing yet but just gentle touches and sitting close.

Finally had a convo today online with Mr C. It wasnt all wonderful, but not terrible either. Hes taking it really hard that I want to try with B. Hes really down on himself right now and I felt as if Im talking to a person who isnt paying attention to what Im saying, its as if Im saying one thing and hes totally thinking the situation is what it isnt. If that makes sense? I saved the chat but need to edit parts of it for later to put in here.

We drove by B’s work on the way home and he always gives me free coffee and got juice for the kids. We said our goodbyes and the girls at work were all “Oh! Its girlfriend, HI!”

B looked very nice today, he rarely wears shorts, and today he did, he feels his legs are too skinny, they look great to me. They are by no means skinny, he is muscular in his legs also, he just feels they should be more filled out.

He said he has probs with his own body image just as some women do, that he sees himself in a certain way despite what others say, he saids its like reverse of women who have anorexia, like they think they are fat when they are skinny. Didnt quite make sense, but just basically people say he looks great and is muscular, and to him he either thinks hes skinny or fat, its a interesting combo.

Anyways, Im home now, relaxing, B will be home from work in about 2 hrs and I left him a note on his bed, since he let me and kids be there a bit after he left. 🙂 Hope he likes it.