Ack! Crazy Day!

Dear Diary,

Well, what a day…

I leave work and my Jeep is running a little weird, like my brake is a little soft or something. Its mid day when its super hot out, I have the AC on and theres a little traffic, so I thought thats what it was.

I turn everything off, but then it stalls once, I restart it okay, I am afraid IM not gonna make it home. So Im sweating the whole way when I come to red lights. But I made it! WHEW! I thought perhaps I was out of fluid or something. So Mom was gonna follow me over to get it serviced and my fluids and all, Well I didnt make it there, I pulled into the nearby park parking lot cause the brakes sucked. So Mom drove youngest and I to auto parts store.

I bought all the fluids, and finally got ahold of my mechanic who said i needed Brake fluid and what kind. Then to pump my brakes like 25 times. We get back to the park, do that, it works, we get it home, well I notice its leaking and its on my driveway.

So long story short, I have no brakes now, I had the neighbors help me push it in my driveway as they are spraying the trees tomm and you cant be parked there so I dont want a ticket also.

I wrote work to tell them I wont be in. Crap Im out of milk too.

So Ill call the mechanic in the AM, hopefully he will fit me in, then Ill have to call AAA to have it towed over.

AND, I have to coordinate with my Mom in order for the ex and all to get the kids.

By the way, he was to pick them up Wed. He called yesterday and said “Ill get them tomm” I said “Well tomm or wed?” I said “Well oldest is going to a friends, later on, call me” Well ex calls today at 5pm saying “Wheres the boys?” Im all huh? He didnt call me to confirm anything or a time, he just showed up at my Moms house. I also was having second thoughts earlier on letting them go a day earlier, they are going to be with him for 13 days as it is. Which I admit Im nervous about them gone this long, it will be the longest ever and Im not too thrilled with my ex and what he does with them as of late.

So I told him tonight would not be good, he can get them tomm. He said “Well I drove all the way over here” Im all “You didnt even call me to confirm anything or a time?”

And then I said “You can get them at my Moms Tomm” He said “I cant I have to go to work” I said “Well so do I, My Mom has to leave by 2”

So I said “Well then I will have to get off early, and if I leave early, I miss pay, and forgive me if Im pissy, but that affects me, and since you dont pay me any child support, it hurts me more then it hurts you, so I think of the two of us, you should be the one to get off early”

He said “No no, your right, I understand, your totally right”

He said hed call his aunt or something, and that was it..

Grrr and now I cant even go to work either….

Oh well, me and the kids will get to hang out tomm before they go and I wont have to rush off to work in the AM. Will just be a pain to coordinate a drop off as I dont have my ex come to the house. Will figure it out as I go…

I feel so outta whack, scatter brained. Im craving sugar super bad. If I had somewhere closer Id just walk to a liquor store to get milk for the kids cereal in the AM and some sugar snack to satisfy my craving.

Im craving baddddddd

Figures the close liqour store is a ghetto looking one that you dont go around at night.

My oldest went over to an old classmates house today and spent a good portion of the day there. I love the mom, shes cool, her son, eeeeks!

Hes one of those kids who is big in size for his age so he appears older, my son has known him since kindergarten and they went to school together for 2 yrs then my son had to change schools, but they have kept in touch via phone and play together several times a year.

But her son is like ADD and huge and, well hes not too enjoyable to have around the house, and my little one loves him and gets super hyper and they feed off eachother, so they were all running all over the place, through the house, with the neighbor boy too, I was all talking to the Mom outside and the kids are running in and out the door.

Im sure my kids have their own rude things they do, but eeks, the neighbor does not know how to knock, he just walks in the house constantly. And sometimes I have one of the kids come in and say they cant play anymore if they get in trouble and the boy just comes walking in my house and doesnt leave when i tell him to go, I have to tell him a couple times. Then the older boy who came over, well he is just big, and rough, and was all running around wanting my youngest childs cool Yu Gi Oh cards and he took one too, my little one was upset.

Okay well Im pooped out and feel so scatter brained. Im looking forward to getting my house totally cleaned out when the kids are gone so I can feel some order.