Do you Ever?
Okay so yeah, Im posting again, so do I sound all manic or something typing? I wonder how I come across to others.
I have a lot of fear in making certain choices, I look at everything and reasons why I shouldnt do anything, I try and be safe, and respectable and not out of line, I try to evaluate things and want to do the best possible action to help influence the outcome.
I remember at a support group long ago the leader asking us how we made decisions or dealt with issues.
And people had answers, but mine I said “I think about it, call a few friends, I journal, I try to make the best possible decision and get all the info needed to help me answer” something like that and she said to me “That must be exhausting having to do that all the time?” I was puzzled as i took pride in my method. But that made me look at it differently.
I wonder why my decisions seem so tough to make and why others can jump and do things.
But I wonder how many people deal with what I deal with? Anyone whos dealt with a narcissistic psychopath? Might know what Im talking about, a person who projects, basically they are doing wrong things and you know they are but then they accuse you of doing what they are doing. You cant even believe or listen to them and have to remember whatever they say they are really speaking about themselves.