Remove the Cross?

Dear Diary,

Its like 11pm and I thought Id be passed out way before 10pm.

I spent a long time on the phone with B. I just cried, I told him a week apart is too long for ME. I told him I need to be able to hug and hold. I asked him why he didnt offer for the kids and I to stay? He said “Because I didnt think you would want too” Im all “Grrr, like I didnt talk enough about it and drop hints, I just didnt want to impose myself”

Okay Im thoroughly convinced as of tonight that GUYS are really dumb in that sense. No offense on the fellas, but its like I have to spell everything out, and the reason why we women dont always do that? Because we feel like we are a nag, that we want our partners to iniate things too, we want to feel wanted, special and desired, and you FELLAS show us that by doing things when we dont have to ask all the time, okay?

:::Off my soap box:::

My Gym Buddy called me tonight, he was concerned about me at the gym today and we talked a good long while, I swear he sure can ramble though, LOL I was trying to watch Real World as he was going on forever with his talk about the way men and women are made and biology and history and animals, and religion,, you get the idea, but I appreciate his concern.

He talked to me a lot too about Prison, what happens to guys in prison, their mindset, how they are like trained dogs.

How many prisoners have at the highest a 9th grade education and maturity level and that is the top level ones. How they adapt in jail and dont do well on the outside. We talked about how a mans word in jail is important, and the EYES, how they read eachother by their eyes. Just all sorts of stuff that Ive heard from Cute Gym Guy, but told from the other side of someone more like me but who works among this. Right now my buddy is working out in the yard, he told me about an inmate who says he has another part to himself, another voice, you know like voices in his head and all…

So Im feeling better, I cried tonight and vented, and told stories and was finally smiling. I got up and vaccumed up my front room and somewhat straightened it up. HA, so much more to go though. My gal pal didnt call tonight which is good cause I dont think I could have handled her and her 4 kids over.

My kids got into a fight before bed, my oldest hitting the youngest, the youngest taunting him again and I just went off, I cried, had them both come in and I told them I cant have this in this house, that this is our home, our safe place, and that we are family here, and I talked aobut learning to walk away from a person who upsets you instead of hitting them and reminded them of why I am not with their Daddy that I could no longer live that way and I dont want my boys doing that either. Man I had them crying too, and I hugged them both, and told them to get to bed and tomm nite there is no playing or tv for that outburst.

God its one of those days where exhaustion is so strong and life and I just want to quit working and recooperate. Clean my house like I used too, not have my day so full of crap and work and errands and stress, just a home and the children.

Ahhhh but how on earth will I pay the bills? 🙁

I swear though, I have no idea how Im gonna hang in with work and all if this keeps up. Im growing weary.

Oh and Adored I heard the JLo pregnant thing, they were saying JLo has that Catholic Girl thing going, feeling she has to get married or guilt or all that crap, just funny how she keeps doing it over and over. Poor thing.

Oh and in California news, to those that havent heard, The ACLU has sued and they will be removing the CROSS from the state seal because of “Separation of Church and State” And the cross is on the seal to represent the missions which founded the Los Angeles areas, even though there is a pagan Goddess on the seal, having a cross violates this? And nobody can afford nor do they want to fight the damn ACLU so now they are going to be removing the cross… let me get a brief story….

This stuff is ridiculous, wasting time, money and energy on removing parts of history because of these retarded claims, a cross on the state seal forces christianity on people? My God, next thing they will say is no church can have a cross on it because it forces others to view it.

LOS ANGELES – The American Civil Liberties Union says it will sue the county unless it removes a tiny cross from its official seal.

The ACLU Southern California chapter said Monday the “Latin cross” on the nearly 50-year-old seal is a religious symbol and represents a government-sponsored endorsement of Christianity. The seal was adopted 47 years ago.

The organization said its complaint was prompted by phone calls it received after the city of Redlands recently agreed to remove a cross from its seal. The letter to the county is similar to one the ACLU sent to Redlands.

“Los Angeles County is the most diverse county in the United States, and if the city of Redlands decided it had to do something, we think the county of Los Angeles should also,” ACLU Executive Director Ramona Ripston said.

County spokeswoman Judy Hammond said removing the cross from the seal would cost “untold thousands and thousands of dollars” because the image appears on many of the county’s 5,000 buildings and thousands of vehicles, as well as stationery, business cards, plaques, flags and Internet sites.

The ACLU’s request also irked some county officials.

“Your failure to understand the history and to rewrite it from the so-called political correctness follows the hate of past book burners,” Supervisor Michael D. Antonovich wrote in a letter to Ripston.