Feel Bad He Drives

Dear Diary,

Morning.

I so want to skip my class today, I didnt do any work all week, B told me to go anyways, that Im more committed to the class then most there and have at least a story going ( as I share with him how many people attend and how many even have started writing a story)

He told me my excuse was BS and I should go even if I dont have anything. I love that guy, hes right, but still not sure if Im gonna go or not.

He also told me to sit down NOW and just get to work,,, Ive been just putting it off, why? I dont know. But I have been.

I skipped the gym yesterday, and went to Trader Joes to food shop ALONE during the non busy time, it was nice. Then I got the kids and headed home. Homework time, etc etc. Sold the china that was from my wedding for $80! YAY

B came out, we watched all the Real World episodes I had to get caught up on then we read a relationship book he brought over, then we went to sleep.

I was tired… he got up and out before 5am, called me around 7:30am from work and said he was so tired and that he only got 3 hrs of sleep?? Aweee, he said he woke up and had trouble sleeping, I didnt even know, poor guy.

I really feel bad for him, I know I would hate waking up at 4:30am to miss traffic to stay the night with him. But what more can I do about it you know?

If he wants to be with me, he will figure it out, and this far he wants to do it.

My Ex husband did it, he did it for years, but he didnt grumble about it, he just went to work, got up early.

Im not saying everyone should do it, commuting sucks, but sometimes you do what you gotta do.

DIdnt talk to my sister last night, no email today, so not sure whats up if anything… Im just afraid this is gonna escalate and get out of hand. Like someone getting hurt, a fight, etc.

Just hope she gets an attny consult SOON so she can see what to do next.

I talked to my Mom and middle sister about it all yesterday, Just none of us get her husbands URGENCY to get the kids to know this new woman and trying to move her into his life so fast.

My mom thought the same thing at first as I, that perhaps the woman was pregnant, but he has a vasectomy, so thats out!

My mom things maybe hes using drugs or something, dont know.

My middle sis said “Vicky, the stuff her husband is doing is totally the same type of stuff that went on in his family growing up, they are all quite strange”

Who knows…

I had to go and balance my checkbook last night, go through bank statements and then factored in the money i had set aside, Now my account is in order, Im not in the negative. I paid a bunch of bills, paid off the attny from my divorce stuff today! haha! I was done last July and just paid the last bill today.

I have the balances from the credit card for the trip still to pay, about $400… I have some of it right now, but I also have my $181 speeding ticket due beginning of May, so not sure how much money will go where. Plus I have to go and pay off my couch, which I need to call the store by the way since nobody has ever called to say it arrived! It should have by now?