Saw Him

Dear Diary,

Morning. Brrrr it was cold out this AM!

It was cloudy when I got out of work yesterday, then last night about 8pm or so I could hear the rain coming down.

B and I were talking online and he it was stormy in his neck of the woods also. Hes one of those people when the weather shifts he feels it in his body, in his bones, and he feels like just sleeping on cloudy days, so he felt like crap.

I drove the kids to school this AM, and eeeeeeeks when you get to the wide open parts the wind was blowing and chilly, my kids wanted some books from the school book fair, their Dad sent some cash home for them to buy one each, and so I said Id go in there and pick up the ones they wanted when they went to class. So I had to trek all the way across the quad which was annoying as they put it in the furthest possible classroom thats a portable out in the field, last year it was in a main classroom up front.

My little one wanted a Monster Garage book and oldest wanted some Transformers Quest book.

They will be excited but when they get home they wont get them until their homework is completed tonight( good incentive to get it done and fast!)

Doing things that way tends to work well around here. Getting things after a task is completed.

So I went to the gym yesterday, and there was Cute Gym Guy, I walked into the backroom and not the main area cardio equipment just so I wouldnt be looking at him for 30 min. Well he came by to use the bathrooms, he looked over, we both smiled and waved. It felt nice, not the ignore crap.

My Gym Buddy came in and a lady L finally is back in the gym after 2 mos away and I had to update her on all the breakup/B/Gym Guy stuff.

Workout buddy came in then he and I did legs together.

Cute Gym guy and I passed one another, smiled, the usual, we even chatted some but just work out talk, it was time for me to go, I was leaving at 5, and yes in some way I wanted him to come outside, I went really slow, but he didnt come out, I took my time leaving, and then finally pulled out.

Its just so strange, cant even describe it. But it was nice that he was cool.

I did some more work on some ebay stuff last night at home, I started it this past weekend so things are strewn all over the living room and I just never cleaned them up, kids arent here but the eves, so as long as I get it picked up by the weekend its okay being out there. We also have to start on my oldest childs Mission Report, its due next friday and its his big project.

I watched the Inferno on MTV last night, I love all those shows, and so B called when it started and we were watching it over the phone and commenting, he made some comment “Veronica, its going to be weird tonight, Ive gotten so used to having you to snuggle up to for the past 5 nights. I love spooning with you” and we were talking about how we sleep, I spoon him, or he spoons me, or he lays on his back and I rest my head on his chest, and we rotate positions through the night, when we wake up we just glue ourselves back together, but in our sleep we drift apart.

He and I have always slept well together, funny how you dont realize things like that, sleeping with a person. My ex husband would sweat at night, didnt matter if it was warm or cold, he was sweating, and it was hard to be up against him as youd feel all sticky, and he had this odor, and hed snore sometimes, and he had bad breath even when he brushed his teeth. It wasnt that he was dirty, the guy showered like twice a day, I kept telling him its something internal and he needed to see a Dr, but well, he didnt of course.

Cute Gym guy, he was hard to sleep around also, just because he didnt sleep that much, hed wake up a lot, and wake me up, and he was an early riser. So when I was around him I was lacking sleep so badly.

B and I, we just can sleep and its nice, our sleep patterns are the same, and I can kiss him first thing in the AM and not be scared off by his breath.

B said “Ill be out a couple nights this week” and I said “Oh you will?” and hes all “Yeah I just needed to get home to get my laundry done” and he got tired and went to sleep.

I feel kinda strange, I havent been asking B to come over, hes just coming now. Which I always had said when we were together I didnt care when, he was welcome. So now he is just coming over, and Ive not driven out there in about 2 1/2 weeks now and hes been out here like crazy.

Part of me feels like telling him not to come over, just to give me some alone time, but the other part of me just doesnt really care either, Im not uncomfortable with him around at all, I dont know what it is, but I know if I dont want him over I can tell him and he will respect that. So we will see when he says he wants to come over how I feel.

My girlfriend L called me from Washington yesterday, second time, and I dont have long distance on my regular phone, my cell has 11 minutes left and Im over my plan minutes unless I call at night, and I just dont have the time but I need to call, its been twice now shes tried to get in touch with me.

So there ya have it, I chatted with LisaMarie from here the other day, had been awhile and was nice to talk, thanks for your input Lisa 🙂

Hope everyone else is doing well out there in Diary Land.