Wake up Crying

Dear Diary,

I was so tired last night. I didnt get much sleep Friday night, Sat night I got 12 hrs sleep WOOHOOO!

Sunday night I was out before 11pm. I woke up about 11:25 am crying with Ex BF asking me if I was okay.

Then I realized it was a dream.

I have these dreams, I have crying dreams often when Im with Ex BF, have in the past also. But I also did have one once when Cute Gym Guy was over too. This one was a little different though.

I dreamt I was at work, that I lived in a sorta weird way where I worked, that we all worked here but then all of us employees lived here also. It was my free weekend, no children, and one of my coworkers daughters was here running around, bugging me, talking to me, in my hair, like really bad. And I was being nice to the girl, but after awhile she was being disrespectful and I said “Where is your Mom?” Well the girl trailed off, and she goes and wakes her mom up whos sleeping crying saying that I was being mean to her. Im all ?????? I told her I was just coming in to see where she was(The Mom) and that her daughter was all over me. The mom looks at me and says “Victoria, all she needed was a hug!” and just glares at me, next thing you know my boss is there just kinda in the background, not doing anything, and the Mom employee says “Well I figured youd be the first one in here complaining” Basically it was responsibility of one shoved off where it didnt belong. Trying to make me responsible and feel guilty for an issue that was not mine.

Ive been a little frustrated with some work things as it is, so there is some truth to it,,,,, and so I just walked out of the building in my dream, and was having to walk down the blvd to my vehicle, I was sobbing and all I was thinking of was how I wanted to go see B, go to B, hed be there for me, hed understand, and then I woke up to him saying “Are you okay”

And I told him the dream, I was calming down, he had me lay on his chest and I said “I just wanted to go to you, and here you are”

And I went back to sleep.

Ahhh interesting isnt it?

Ex BF came by my work a bit ago,helped move some heavy stuff, and now hes off taking stuff to the cleaners for me?

Its like theres this guy before me still who is so foreign you know? Hes thoughtful

Hes wanting to come over now, hes around, he offered to watch the kids for me later so I could go to the gym.