Overseas Guy Letter
Dear Diary,
Okay Im all teary eyed right now. I open my email this AM to find it almost full and a letter and a photo from my friend overseas.
His letter…
“Vicky,
Well, I hoped that carrying a picture of you with me here didn’t
seem too psycho to you. Kind of embarrassing to admit… I think about you
a lot. I really wish that life had played out different for me. It’s funny
how you meet a really incredible person and then you leave. My life is like
that. For what it is worth Vicky, you would be worth stopping everything
for if I had that choice.
I’m in it now and there isn’t much looking back. North of me right
now, only 30 some miles away, is the border of Iraq. We are playing a
waiting game. I don’t know what will happen, but I know it won’t be as easy
as the last one. Each day we plan, we train, and prepare ourselves. And
most of all; we wait. I don’t know how all this will play out. My best
guess is that I’ll be back in a year or so.
As far as my advice for you is nothing that you don’t already know.
You’re a fighter, know it or not. I wouldn’t take a single ounce of s**t
from that guy. My advice to you is not to play as mean as him; be meaner.
You only have one life to live. Don’t let him ruin it.
I hope that helps. But consider the source, what do I know anyway.
🙂
Take care of you,
And he sent the most adorable picture of himself in fatigues.
The last part of the letter was referring to dealing with my ex. I had asked him some feedback on it.
I just sit here, my heart just flutters. I feel guilty. I have a boyfriend.
Here I am missing B and thinking good things about him, then I get this letter, and Im reminded once again of him.
I have to say, over the 6 yrs or so of us being friends, he keeps stepping up his communication to me. And its pretty much been over the past 2 yrs. And since he left the states this time he has been writing me quite a bit.
:::Sigh:::
Ugh this is confusing.
I mean what do you do?
I adore this man and always have.
But hes gone, and he wont be around for a few more years.
Like I could really sit around and just solely “Wait” for him?
It reminds me of people married to or dating a prisoner in jail. How you correspond thru letters. How some women do it for years, but the conflicting aspect of men gone and away and sometimes not knowing for how long. And then how some date in the meantime or see others. Its lonely.
Reminds me also of the old days. How people married and went off to war, And wives were left alone and “waited” for their man, or for their fiance to wed once they returned.
And Im like?? How does one handle this?
I need to tone down our letters? I just enjoy them? Then on the other end I feel what if Im NOT available when he returns? I dont want him having a false hope of me. But then again he knows I have a boyfriend.
Damn it sucks being me at times that my mind goes so in depth and wants everything figured out, heck Im talking something that if it were even possible would be YEARS down the road.
Here I am with B. And my overseas guy is where he is.