My Eventful Weekend

Dear Diary,

Well I had quite the weekend of things to share!

I spent friday night with a girlfriend who was on some type of drug/medication and out of it and passed out at the school with her 2 small children. This is a girl I went to grade school with and reported her mother for abuse when we were in Jr High. Anyways, I spent 2 hrs in the hospital ER. She was out of it, shakey, and her kids were there for it all. It was sad, I tried to get phone numbers out of her and just got a sisters number who wasnt home. I ended up leaving after 2 hrs once the dr was to see her and they said I did all I could do. I got a call yesterday and they one sister got the kids but they cant go live with there mom, social services had to come in. I mean the woman passed out at the school with a 1st and 2nd grader fending for themselves and was attempting to walk home and disoriented with them! So I felt bad, but I knew I had to take her there I couldnt drive her home and leave the kids with her like that. So I was kinda stressed after that whole episode. It was very nerve racking, trying to figure out what to do with her, and trying to keep her kids ok and tell them Mommy is sick.

I got into a squabble with B on the phone, just over the way he was talking to me. I was very sensitive, and I just had to go, I almost didnt go over friday. But last minute just drove, My mind wasnt all gung ho but I had the movie tickets. We drove down in time for the movie. And we saw Igby Goes Down. Very interesting dysfuntional family film. I liked it though, just kinda dark morbid humor.

B and I drove home, he was griping about Hollywood traffic. I just noticed everything he was doing was starting to grate on my nerves. His negativity, his complaining. Im super sensitive right now about things with him.

We got back without much talking and just went straight to bed. We got into a squabble about my bag. I asked him if hed get it and carry it in, he just opened the door to the vehicle and stood there. I said “Are you going to get it?” he said “I thought you wanted me to open the door” I said “No I asked if you get it” he just stood there, so I grabbed it myself and said “Fine dont get it” and walked in. It was just weird. Why did I even have to ask him. So I asked him in bed why he just stood there, and why is it I have to tell him WHAT to do and how to do it. Why cant he just grab it and be helpful? He just said “yeah” and we went to sleep.

So hung out there in the AM then we went to lunch and I headed to the Hollywood Collector show. I went by myself! GO ME! I got my picture taken with “Laverne, Shirly and Carmine” cool huh! I also talked to Corey Feldman for a little bit. He was about the only actor my age that was there that I recognized and was sitting alone at his table. They basically get money for autographs and photos and he was selling his CD. I felt like such a dork, I grew up with all his movies so I have a lot of memories of him, but I think I looked like a dork. haha!

I then called Hollywood dude and we took off up PCH highway along the beaches. Nice drive. We went to a nice little but fancy diner, sat and talked, then went to Zuma beach afterwards. He just took me places I didnt go through the whole “Where do you want to go…..” blah blah deal. Im not familiar with things anyways there, I need someone to do that. We went and sat on a blanket on the beach to watch the sunset and talk. Hes really cool. I was telling a friend how different he is. He doesnt really touch me, try to hug me or any of that when Im around him. We just hang out. Which is good for me and shows me he has some restraint and isnt a pig. 🙂

We drove back and considered a movie but then timining wasnt right. We drove by 2 of his old homes. Omgosh! They were soooo cool! There are so many old homes down there to die for, its the exact styles I love. So we just oohed and ahhed places. And he told me about how he had the wood stripped we could see thru the windows of one with the new residents. We talked about our families. His mom took off when he was a toddler. He wasnt a good student and lived with his Dad and abusive step mom. At 16 moved to Cali and said it was total culture shock for him and he dropped out of school. He was into drugs and had no goals he said. At 18 he got into AA and got clean. And has been since. He just had a lot of growing up to do. We just have some cool talks, very mature ones. And he cant stand drama stuff or even entertaining talks like that. So its different for me also.

We watched Sat Nite Live, and I actually went HOME! I was debating staying, but made myself leave. So It was very strange staying alone at my house last night. But it was good for me to do. So Ive been home all day today just house cleaning and all. When I got back I had a message from both my sisters right after eachother saying they were thinking of me and to give them a call and they love me. 🙂 That was nice to come home too, so I spent several hours on the phone today with my sisters 🙂

About an hour and a half till the kids will get back from seeing their Dad. Hope they are good. 🙂 Drop off went smooth this time, although my mom said Ex later called asking why our little one has antibiotics??? Dingaling I wrote him an email saying it and he read it and responded. But as usual hes so clueless, My mom was all “For his teeth?”

Hollywood guy said something as we sat talking last night “Victoria, there are “Normal” guys out there. You will meet men who are emotionally healthy there are more of them out there”

It is weird and an adjustment for me. But in a good way to meet other people. And this has been a nice eye opener. A father of a child, who sees his kid, who helps, who works and has goals. Who takes care of his emotional well being.

Ive not met someone who does those things before.