He was in my Dream

Dear Diary,

I took some Echinacea/Goldenseal yesterday and forgot to do so with a meal, so Im thinking its the reason for the gassy, bloaty wonderful run to the bathroom feeling. Im trying to fight off whatever this is so time to crank up the vitamins, had to remove the milk(which I love) from my diet. Its just this dang throat thing. Im so resistant to going to drs. Unless Im really in dire need. I have no other symptoms, just this throat thing, and the run down feeling.

I need to take some garlic today, that stuff does wonders to ward off evil germies.

I laid in bed last night and talked to B after he got off work and then he was falling asleep. He is wanting to quit one his part time jobs. Said hes sick of it, so I dont know how long he will hang in there. He is in need of more work, and Im always one of those people who panics and wants to make sure new work is lined up. But hes just kinda winging it and says he needs to find a job. Which his Jeep is using up his money, today he ran into a prob with the Jeep and sent me an email, he was frustrated, he may have a defective part, 🙁 So we shall see what the word is later.

I invited him out tonight. My mom is taking my kids out of town to my sisters tommorow so B can stay there for the day after I leave for work, and I said he could come to work and have lunch with me, sleep in at the house, and all that. He said he liked the sounds of that. Also one more week of no school! YAY! So kids will start back, Mom can have her life back, and B wont have to rush off early cause Mom is showing up to watch the kids. So Im looking forward to getting back into the old swing of things.

Ex is quiet lately, which can feel weird. He didnt call for the kids at all and my oldest called him but no answer. In law is still calling every week for the kids, bleh. My counselor said to just write her an email telling her that my attorney advised me that she can speak to the children when she is with their father. I just havent done so yet. Part of me hates doing things this way, yet what other choice do I have? This woman created so much along with her son about these children saying they were sexually acting out. Then the day of court she calls me all nice, and my ex retracts any of the accusations and agrees that the kids shouldnt be left alone with her and her roomate. So how would you handle this situation?? Yuck.

I had a dream last night. That I was renting one of my parents old apartments, and that I didnt necessarily like it, it was roomy in the bedrooms, had a fireplace, wood floors, and I loved that part, but the neighborhood wasnt desirable and it was kinda scary, but I was there at night with the kids and I still had my house also and was thinking of renting it to a coworker. Then my ex showed up there and he smiled at me and we talked really nicely finally and things felt better between us. And we hugged and were gonna work together as parents now. And it was a nice feeling, ahhh but it was a dream.

Well off to work!