Cries

Dear Diary,

I feel like crying, Im at work, so Im just wiping my eyes. I finally got a response email from the ex over his Mother.

Im just feeling so many emotions inside right now. Im sad, Im sad that we cant communicate, Im also sad over losing him in my life, we spent a long time together, I grew up with him. Despite all the bad things that occurred. I do still love him. I didnt want to divorce, who wants too? But at the same time, I could not be healthy with him. I had to end it. And he doesnt see a need for himself to get help. I dont know whats going on with him, I can never really know, hes unpredictable. I guess I just have no idea what state of mind he is in. I let my guard down and think hes being nice and become vulnerable then WHAMMO I get taken for another ride.

Hes been a bit mellow lately. But here is what he wrote regarding my email about his mother.

“My lawyer has all the paper work from your office which is in there so

she will deal with it.

Please, do not contact me on any matter other than those that matter to

the boys Physical and Mental and academic needs; and then only by

e-mail, unless it is a medical emergency.

You have stated all you concerns in your paper work. So there is no

need for you to try to discuss issues that will be handling by the

court.”

So Im confused, he says not to contact him about anything except the boys physical, mental and academic needs. This is all I have done? And me writing to him about concern for being around the mother and her roomate, Umm isnt that a MENTAL well being issue? So I did write him, but then he says nothing about it, but then goes on to say dont write me unless its for that type of reason. Does this make sense to anyone?

Why isnt he responding to me about something he had big concerns himself over?

Ugh, Victoria, stop trying to figure him out, youll drive yourself mad.

I just want all this over.