Memories flooding in
Dear Diary,
Im having a weepy late night emotional moment right now. Im talking to boyfriend online, but just dont feel this is an appropriate thing to share with him. Its just one of those creeping up painful feelings. Good feelings about my ex, the good memories.
I have a 3 day weekend ahead. I want to spend it doing things with the kids, boyfriend said he would spend the day with us all so probably Monday we will all go somewhere together. But its up to me to figure out what to do, where to go. And to be honest, it sounds utterly silly right now and I just feel entirely emotional. But my Ex always thought of the neatest places to go, he could find neat little fun spots tucked away in places most people wouldnt find. ANd he always new the way. So I never really took note of how to get places, he would drive us there. He would take me and the kids to these neat little spots. I miss that so much, ugh Im crying like a baby right now. 🙁
I have spent all day trying to think of something for us all to do, all I can think of is places Ive been too and know how to get too, but I dont know how to find new places, new memories, and I have to do all the leg work. I just miss that side of my Ex, thats all. I loved that about him.
Why is it I feel all this when he is being a jerk?