Beach Day

Dear Diary,

I GOT MY PERIOD TODAY! heehee

I shoulda figured, with all the symptoms, but I wasnt expected the possibility till about another week. So that is off my shoulders now. I called boyfriend and left him a voice mail this AM with the news.

Im exhausted, spent the day at Newport Beach, very nice beach, but quite the drive and the kids were ancy. But overall it was a good time. Although my friend C and his wife were late on leaving and were having a marital squabble before we left. And C even asked me to go and try to to talk to his wife. She was upset about the bread he bought for their sandwiches, and he said now she is freaking out. So I went in and she was just standing in the kitchen upset, she said “He wont listen to me!” and I walk back outside and he said “I mean cmon shes holding us all up over white bread?” I said “Well theres obviously an underlying issue” He said “YES, its that she wants to be control, this is an ongoing thing in our marriage” and shortly she came out.

Ah the joys of married life! Its so weird watching, its uncomfortable yes, but I can relate with both parties, wondering what is going on behind it all. And seeing myself in some of it, seeing my old ways of handling things, I think just in general spending the day with them, watching her, reminded me much of the old me. And to be honest, I dont like it, and dont like the old me I was years ago in my marriage.

But this was my first day seeing her act this way, she was quite demanding to him of doing certain things her way, and he was frustrated and trying to please but it still wasnt good enough, meanwhile the kids and I just went a long for the ride wondering what next. Took us forever to find a place to eat. Not sure what the problem was, she wanted one place in particular, wouldnt eat at a restaraunt cause we were all “in beach garb” didnt want the Del Taco cause it was located in a mini mart, and on and on, so C would pull in, the whip back out and be upset.

I still had many thoughts today of my ex, just the whole outing missing part of my ex. As I said, I loved that my ex drove lots of places, wanted to show me new spots, and was so creative with finding that type of thing. So its one thing I can say is really cool about him. I was missing boyfriend too, just missing that I dont have him to come home too, that hes working tonight and how I cant wait to hear his voice. I most likely will see him tommorow and take the kids to the party at his friends. 🙂

C and his wife kept pointing out men to me. Telling me to find a rich man with a beach house. They dont know about the boyfriend, and I keep it quiet right now since C is a friend of my Ex. Just better to leave some stuff out of it all right now. I dont want someone telling my ex things about me should that arise.

So here I am now, with gritty sand in my hair, and in comfy jammie pants, relaxing with some juice and typing in the dark.

OH! And yesterday I bought a new alarm clock, it has sounds to fall asleep too, last night I put on the ocean sound, and I fell asleep so fast and slept so well! I love it!