Depression?

Dear Diary,

Its about 10:30pm. Im just kinda sitting here bored. I miss the chat rooms on AOL. Im really tempted to go back, but tell myself no that it will consume too much of my time if I do. But no more Ex telling me I cant talk to anyone I want online or check up on me or check my history, etc etc. I can do whatever I want and have whoever I want for friends.

My girlfriend invited me and the kids over for a Bday party sat for her daughter. So it will be nice to go and hang out with her and her husband and the kids will have fun. Then in the eve she is having a adults party for her husband. I really want to go but I dont have a sitter, my Mom has done so much for me this past month I cant ask her. It wouldnt be right. So Im racking my brain to think of somebody? I asked her if I can bring a date also and she said Yes. But either way I know Id have fun with a date or alone, she and I have known one another and took a trip to Washington DC together for a week several years ago. We had the BEST TIME together!

Well Im going to a Christian Rock Concert( well not sure what type of style Id consider the band) But me and the man Im dating are going to see DC Talk on Monday. Im looking forward since I bought tickets last year then it was cancelled due to the Sept 11th then rescheduled. It will be interesting Im sure. The group is awesome, and all 3 members have made solo albums now so part of the concert will showcase their solo endeavors. Im really glad the dating man is going with me also 🙂

Well he found out he got scheduled to work till 11pm on Valentines Day, he called and left me a message and I could tell he felt so bad and frustrated and afraid Id be upset at him over it. I just told him it was ok and we can do it another night. 🙂

I just want to hold him right now. He told me today he doesnt know whats going on with him, he cant pinpoint it, but he just says “Maybe just depression”