Tried to be like Grace Kelly….

Dear Diary, I keep writing so much here and there, its all I know how to do. I am so unfocused today at work, its hard for me, I just want to leave, yet if I leave I just go home and sit with myself just the same. I so badly want to see my…

Mr C: you still there? Me: yes Mr C: did I do something wrong here? Me: No why? Mr C: is it wrong for me to feel and express my frustration? Me: no its not Mr C: Anythng else to add before I sign off? Me: Dont make assumptions and dont take things personally, its…

Dear Diary, Just got home. Later then I expected. Was dropping kids off at 6:30 with Mom so she could drive them to courthouse for visitation with Dad at 7. The kids asked today why are they going there. My mother already told me if they asked her she would tell them the truth “This…

Dear Diary, Im so glad no work tommorrow! YAY! Sleep in! Well Ive been corresponding via email with ex today. Seemed to be going well discussing a legal settlement over the house and debts, then he started in some assinine letter about how he left me in a “Good place”??? Like he takes credit for…

Okay so yeah, Im posting again, so do I sound all manic or something typing? I wonder how I come across to others. I have a lot of fear in making certain choices, I look at everything and reasons why I shouldnt do anything, I try and be safe, and respectable and not out of…

Dear Diary, Well I left B snuggled under the covers. He was only gonna hang out about another hour after I left then head out, he has numerous things to do before leaving at 3pm for work. So today will be his first day. Working 5-1am. But he has to commute, so for starters hes…