End of Day
Dear Diary,
Im so glad no work tommorrow! YAY! Sleep in!
Well Ive been corresponding via email with ex today. Seemed to be going well discussing a legal settlement over the house and debts, then he started in some assinine letter about how he left me in a “Good place”??? Like he takes credit for where I am in my life? What the? Umm NOT!
Anyways, hes still the same old fake lying jerk trying to play “Lets get a long” talks at me for the day. :::hurl:::
Talked to Music dude tonight. We caught up some. He said he lost it at work last night and just started crying at the club. He also said dating the chick at the club has its own stress since they see eachother all the time. And he said she wants to leave LA and go to Utah, so thats stressing him out she wants to move away. Hates LA. He then said he just broke down and sobbed at work. He said to me “I hate LA, do you realize this past year Ive seen 4 dead bodies?” I had no idea. He said homicides and suicides.
I asked him if he wants to move. He said he cant because of his daughter. I told him if he ever needs to get away for a day or so hes welcome here. I love that guy. He is a sweetheart. He was doing well, hes just getting sucked into the dark side of LA life. The club business, the people hes around, etc.
Obnoxious dude was flirting with me again tonite online, saying “Im preparing for our marriage” I was like “Oh God no! I just want to be divorced!” Hes really laying the flirting on thick these days. Wish I liked him in that way, Id eat it up! Hell the guy would take care of me financially, love my kids and be good to them. All that. I have no doubt. Hes just so immature emotionally, hes got issues like everyone else, but refuses to even face them. I cant deal with that. I like people who like to have deep emotional talks. This guy cant hang with that. Hes too much on the surface.
Called my oldest sis today. We are meeting her place, me and my siblings Christmas eve with our kids. NO PARENTS!! My parents are not going to be told or invited for the first time ever! It feels so sneak, us older kids hiding it. But we are emotionally going through a lot. My oldest sister is so bitter about my Mom. So its kinda hard at times to talk to her because Im close to my Mom. I admit Mom does weird crap too, but Im not like she is towards her.
But we will have a nice christmas. All of us kids. I talked to my bro briefly online tonight. He said he will see me then. He also looked online at what im doing at work and praised me for it. 🙂 Said my work must really love me. 🙂
My nephew is still in jail. I guess he is asking for my sisters hubby to drop the charges. I pray to God they dont. My sister can finally relax and not worry about him, Hes in jail, fed, clothed, taking his medication. Hes an adult now, so she cant get him put in a facility, jail is better then him living on the street, harrassing her and her family.
My newphew is bipolar. And he busted into my sisters house one night demanding money. And her husband defended himself, my nephew then severly vandalized both their cars, my Bro in Law injured his hand hitting him and was out of work for 4 mos!
Crazy! But my nephew finally got more time in jail after this episode.
Kids were happy today. Got Christmas goodies and had their Christmas parties at school for the last day. And I have all their presents taken care of for christmas YAY!
B and I wrote emails today, telling eachother what we want for Christmas. It feels weird writing a list like that, but I did it.
Im down to $100, which isnt much anymore. I have to go shopping this weekend for B’s presents.
Well enuff for now!