Overwhelmed by House stuff

Dear Diary,

Got a gift today from boss. In the form of $$$.

Also told Im doing a great job.

So today I was able to get all my bills caught up. Buy a few more Christmas presents for the kids, all the home things I needed to get (Toiletries, cleaning supplies, Dog Food) and I bought myself a CD and some more of those Whitening Strips. I used them last year and they worked well on my teeth but you have to do them again about every 6 mos to keep up with it. So I have been wanting to again. 🙂 I then took the kids to eat at Subway for dinner. Was just nice to spend some money and enjoy it. It just goes so fast!

Came home today to 2 Christmas cards. One from my childhood friend C. And the other from my Ex’s Aunt and Uncle. 🙂 Which was just nice to get. These are the ones he was just at a week or so ago out of town and staying there. Its just nice to get a card you know? I mailed out several today and will do the rest tomorrow. Im a little late on my cards. I really wanted to get a photo to put in them, but no time and I didnt have money until today to order some. Oh well.

Cant do everything! Im a busy woman!

Tomorrow night my oldest has a Christmas program at school. 🙂

I cant believe Christmas is almost here. It just sneaks up on you too fast! It seems like by the time you get everything set up and out, its here and gone!

Im really frustrated with my house.

I know in my head how Id like it to look. I get lofty ideas I guess and look at the big picture of what I want to do or achieve and then get overwhelmed. Instead of seeing it takes time and you have to go piece by piece.

I also have this thing, its hard for me to just get rid of stuff. Like for example just give it away. I did finally do that though. I donated several bags a few mos ago to charity. But I still have so much more. I just see $$$$ when I look at all that I have and what I could get for it. So I hate to give things away sometimes when I know it could bring in $$ for me and the kids. Yet at the same time I dont have the time and energy to set up a really nice organized yard sale, or sell things on Ebay. Then the Ebay thing I just dont do these days because of the divorce situation. I dont want to have to figure it in as income and my ex go all anal on that with me so I just have backed off from that for now.

I have way too much stuff and clutter! I walked through Target tonight seeing all these things I want to do or buy. But cant.

Like I said before I really need to invest in some more organizational items, containers, etc. I also need some more filing boxes and folders I have so much paperwork! And I need a separate cabinet just for divorce crap and legal papers so I can keep it all straight better. But that stuff all costs money.

And my oldest sons room! UGH! That kid used to be the neatest little boy at our old house. 2 bedroom house and he shared a room with his little brother. Then I split them up shortly after we moved into the new house to their own rooms, and he has been the WORST slob ever since. I totally CANNOT stand it, hes awful! So I really have to do something about his room.

See what I mean? I wanna clean out my garage, I wanna finish painting my office, I wanna do this and that and this and that!

Somedays I wish I could just move! Start over with a new canvas. Move into a small cute little house again like I had before. But I cant do that either until this house stuff is settled and its in my name alone. And besides this house is perfect for 2 children and a large dog.

Well Im rambling, Later!