Libido

Dear Diary,


Im all comfy in my warm jammies. The weather was so hot yesterday. I went to sleep barely dressed with the ceiling fan on. I woke up to cloudy skies and howling wind! Grrrr Its been terrible all day out. Where did my sunshine go?


Got an email today during work from boyfriend that said “I was thinking about you as I was drifting off to sleep last night. Thinking “Wow I have a really cool girlfriend, and shes hot too!” 🙂


I did some internet searching, just floating ideas around in my head. Wondering about Townhomes or something like that. I have no idea about any of this stuff, but Im just trying to see if there is a way I can live more simply and cheaply. Boyfriend lives in a gorgeous townhome with the woman he rents from. I know how much it costs her though! Double my mortgage payment, but its the price for the area in which they live. So I think Im going to do a little searching around here and surrounding areas. Doesnt mean I will leave my house, but need to feel out my options. I really want to live in a better area for schooling and an area where my children have others to play with. Also Id like to shrink some bills, and less maintenance, yard work, etc. But who knows, just kinda fun to hunt around for the heck of it. I just really want something with a yard still, I dont care if its a smaller yard, but I do need something with outdoors! I dont want apartment living again.


I got home and briefly watched a bit of Oprah while eating my lunch before heading to the gym. Oprah had Kathy Smith on. I like her, the fitness lady. I believe they said she is in her 50s????? Not sure if I heard that right, but damn she looks nothing like 50!


My Mom stopped by and informed me my oldest sister is going to have another child. I was like WHAT?????? But shes not pregnant. HAHA, she has remarried and has a stepdaughter shes raised. Well I guess her husband has a stepdaughter who is basically going to be given to the state because nobody can take care of or handle her. I guess his daughter and her lived together the first 5 yrs of her life, so she always speaks about her, but the family cut off all ties when the kids were all spread about( Mother was a druggie ) And my sisters hubby and her got custody of his child with her, so now they are going to take on her 11 yr old half sister. I know my sister, she wants to help, she helped her step daughter thru all her therapy as a toddler from an abusive neglectful mother. They said they dont want this other one to be a throw away child.


I headed off to the gym. I changed my routine after reading this book a guy gave me. So Im doing my weight lifting before cardio. I always did 30 min of cardio first, but now Ive reveresed it. WOW, Im exhausted though! That 30 min of cardio is tougher to do now. We shall see what results it gives me if any.


I debated not going to group today. Im ready to move up to the advanced group, but I was so busy, but at the last minute I headed over. Its a whole new set of people, and this moderator is a paid therapist and not a volunteer. Im really glad I went. I knew this group would dig deeper, but now I got a taste of how much deeper, and it is very important I go.


I got home and got right into the bathtub to clean off from the gym and hop into comfy clothes.


I dont know what was up with me this weekend, but my libido was SO HIGH. I havent been that way in MONTHS. It finally chilled out today. Its nice though now and then to just feel like a sexual being, I just wonder if thats how a guy feels all the time! ha, I think ive just had too much going on in my life and stress to feel sexual. But seeing boyfriend saturday sparked that fire in me, and it didnt leave me till the following evening.


I think I will sleep good tonight.

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