Halloween and US

Dear Diary,

I just wanted to write this, I know its totally my decision. But I just wanted to put it out there for feedback. And I did get your comment, the private one. 🙂 And No I didnt take it bad or as a lecture. You actually wrote about the very thing I was thinking.

So here goes.

I have been thinking in my head about what if I asked my ex if he wanted to go watch the kids trick or treat, the both of us and the kids.

Its actually been on my mind a lot. I honestly dont have a problem with it.

The apprehension to it is this…. If I do this, will I give him an “in” to mess with me, and thus mess with the children emotionally, and pull a stunt on a Holiday that is for THEM?

Yes ideally I would love for this for the kids. But am I just being to wishful thinking and asking for trouble. Look at all his behavior this far? Is this a person who will be respectful? Or will he start doing his crying routine when he has to leave and I will take home to little weepy trick or treaters?

I guess I feel Im answering my question as I type this. I really would love to have my ex there for Halloween, music dude and his ex take their daughter trick or treating together. I would love for my ex to be at school functions, plays, open houses, etc.

But then I have to remind myself of why he isnt. Its his own doing.

My ex is abusive and manipulative.

So I guess I just had to let this out, maybe in later years we can do this?