Good News and Hes Moody
Dear Diary,
Got a call from B after work, I called back and he had news he got a job! He has a meeting today and orientation on Monday. $14 a hour! His hours arent the most ideal though, but it isnt the worst. 5pm-1am M-Fri.
He also has to be dressy business like.
He didnt sound overly excited, he just said “I gotta go be all responsible and shit”
So he was coming over after counseling. He arrived and his mood was serious. I was in a good mood and happy for him. He brought dinner and sat and ate it then sat on the couch, I was getting kids baths ready and finishing up some minor homework details. I was sitting on the couch with him and asked him if he was ok. He said “Yes, I was just hungry, give me a bit” So I said ok since I know he has that blood sugar thing that I have if I miss a meal or eat too late.
I was giving my youngest a quiz on his spelling words, when I got done B said “This is like sick twisted dejavue” I was like huh? Hes all “Ive been doing this everyday, sitting with a 4 yr old at my place helping her with homework” I just smiled but I just hate the way he says things at times. His tone. So I just leave him be and finish what Im doing. My oldest got out of the bath and then climbed up on B and hugged him. B just said “Hey *****” not sure if whether he hugged him back or not. So my oldest sat on the couch and hung out with B for a few minutes till I told him to finish picking up his room. B and I sat on the couch and watched Friends and Will and Grace. My oldest came in and snuggled up on me for a bit. Then he laid on the floor. I didnt rush him off to bed at 9pm since he was just being quiet and laying there, I have him go to bed at 9pm each night but he always stays up, he just seems to need unwind down time. Hes a good kid and not disruptive he will sit in his bed with a toy or a book or draw, then flip the light off when hes ready to sleep. So it was about 5 after 9 and B tapped me and pointed at my son on the floor, implying it was his bed time. I dunno, part of it rubs me wrong. Who does he think he is? I mean I dont mind having some help, but the kid was just laying there being quiet and it was 5 after? Im not asking for him to parent. Actually I wish he would just ENJOY them.
We then went to bed and I just snuggled up against him, watched a little tv then we went to sleep. He was having one of his quiet, non talkative, serious moods. And to be honest I feel on edge a little when hes this way. He says hes fine, and I just wonder at times.
So Im going up after the kids leave to see their Dad, Im a little bleh about it, I just pray his mood is perked up. Its a free friday night, wonder what we will do? Also please say a prayer that the visitation drop off goes the right way this time with the kids.