Guy Pals
Dear Diary,
Well just sitting here relaxing, the gym really wiped me out today. My legs were weak as I left. I talked to B some online earlier today. We discussed the anniversary of 9/11 tommorow. He said basically that if anything does happen tommorow it wont impact the either of us. Who is going to bomb or attack the places he and I live. I said I could agree there and I didnt have that fear and Im not scared or freaking out over anything, was just mentioning the hightened alert I read on the Net. But I did say that regardless of where we are even if something does happen it can impact us. He said “Well yeah with paranoia, hysteria, its sorta Nazi ish if you ask me” were his comments.
Guess I dont relate to his mindset.
I just thought back to 9/11 and I called B that AM. He didnt have tv at that time. And he really didnt seem all to interested in what was going on in the world.
Well just felt like spitting that out.
Just sitting here tonight, it seems a lot of male friends are just cropping up around me. My Music producer friend and I talk weekly and often, we have been for sometime, he is cool. The guy at the gym talked to me a bit today about men, about things I can do to get out and have fun, and offered help with computers or electrical should I need any. Then when I mentioned my ex back in town he said if I ever need to give him a call and he will grab a few of the big guys to hang out with me for a bit. HAHA, and he was serious and I know he was, he works with all the correctional officers, prison guards and those likes who all come to our gym.
I also talked to my friend G today online, the guy who came to see me last year who Ive known online for sometime also. He said “When do we get to hang out!” and we bantered back both our odd humors. He is in town every wednesday now, so I told him to call me one wed and visit on his way home.
Its not really that Im trying to find a MAN, I miss laughter and good conversation. And its a nice change of pace to talk to others who arent so down about life.
I am sad about B, Im sad because I dont want things to stay this way. 🙁 Say a prayer for B.