You break my heart

Dear Diary,

Ok was talking to Mr C this am, he says to follow my heart, since I put my foot down it seems its working with B and its causing a turn around and I should see how it plays out.

We talked for quite awhile, he was encouraging me to do more girl fun things, saying how Im in “Couples Mode” and that if I stay that way I will smother B also eventually, if I dont have other friends and interets, which I agree with. So I said how I wanted to go to this male dancers night here in town, so hes all SO GO. Call your girlfriend and tell her we are going( my friend who wants to always sell me stuff) He said tell her “Fuck the Mary Kay, girls night out!”

So I called her, and yes invited her and she wants to go, its day after her birthday so she said its a good excuse to have a girls night out. I was on the computer with Mr C, and on the phone asking my girlfriend and I told Mr C “Well its on! We are going Wed!” Hes all “What!? You called her already?” Im all yeah? Hes all “You rock my world”, I laughed, and then he types “And break my heart” and signs offline.

Ahh man, 🙁 I do feel guilty about these types of things, In group they keep telling us we dont owe people things, dont do things out of guilt, man its really tough, cause right now I feel so bad, like it was wrong for me to meet up with Mr C? I have enjoyed him very much and am so glad I met him, and I dont plan our friendship to just STOP. He shows no signs of writing me off and doesnt talk that way, he says Im the one who seems to get confused.